tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-23594361613623932682024-03-05T11:43:23.221-08:00From Skinny to HealthyUnknownnoreply@blogger.comBlogger38125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2359436161362393268.post-82029226518152672052012-02-02T05:45:00.000-08:002012-02-02T05:45:35.943-08:00I don't struggle as much.<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"></div><table align="center" cellpadding="0" cellspacing="0" class="tr-caption-container" style="float: left; margin-right: 1em; text-align: left;"><tbody>
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<span style="font-family: inherit;">I woke up super early this morning and have been wasting time while waiting for the sun to rise. This morning I am going to the rec center with a friend (we have a new tradition of working out together on Thursday mornings). <b>These workouts are like therapy for me.</b> We talk non-stop. Our workout looks a bit something like this:</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: inherit;">1.<b> Swipe membership cards</b> (major thumb pointer finger exercise), put our stuff in the locker rooms (use biceps to lift backpack onto hook), and sit and talk in locker room for 5 minutes (quads burn after this).</span><br />
<span style="font-family: inherit;">2. <b>Walk slowly over to the bikes,</b> sit on bike, try and figure out bike together (mental exercise).</span><br />
<span style="font-family: inherit;">3. <b>Put bike on level one and slowly pedal </b>while spilling all the beans on our past week to each other.</span><br />
<span style="font-family: inherit;">4. One bead of sweat just might fall down the forehead.....but that's just from talking so fast.</span><br />
<span style="font-family: inherit;">5. <b>Take about 5 minutes to wash off handlebars </b>because "OH MY GOODNESS.....HE SAID WHAT?!?!"</span><br />
<span style="font-family: inherit;">6. <b>Walk for 10 minutes over to the weight room</b>....try and figure out machines together....maybe do about 2 reps of 5 at 3 machines.</span><br />
<span style="font-family: inherit;">7. <b>Walk for 10 more minutes to the ellipticals</b> and say..."well should we work out really hard for about 10 minutes and then go?".... "Sounds great!"</span><br />
<span style="font-family: inherit;">8. <b>Push ourselves to break a sweat for 10 minutes</b> while gasping for air because we are still talking so much.</span><br />
<span style="font-family: inherit;">9. <b>Take 10 minutes to stretch </b>2 muscles.<img src="http://www.verigoodfitness.com/wp-content/uploads/2010/01/workout-partner-200.jpg" /></span><br />
<span style="font-family: inherit;">10. <b>Drive home</b> with a smile on our faces. <b><u><span style="font-size: x-large;">The best therapy out there.</span></u></b></span><br />
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<span style="font-family: inherit;">I love it...and I don't care if I burn 1 calorie or 200.....the health of my mind after this workout is in tip top shape! Which is <b>JUST if not MORE</b> important than my physical health.</span><br />
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<u><span style="font-family: inherit;">STORY TIME:</span></u><br />
<span style="font-family: inherit;">Two weeks ago when we went to work out at the rec center something really cool happened! So since I am pretty slow when it comes to figuring out weight machines, this really nice 40 something year old lady gave me a tip on how to work the machine. I have seen her there all the time (she is always helping out others with their workouts and such). We get to talking and it turns out that she is a trainer at the rec center which is why she is always helping people...duh. Anyways...we talk some more and she gives some encouragement to me and my friend that we shouldn't work out too long or hard because too many young girls are too concerned about working out than more important things.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: inherit;">I so appreciated her concern for us and told her that I definitely have to keep that in check. She just opened right up then and told us how when she was<u> 18 she was a model.</u> She was very small and worked out too much and ate too little. One day she went to a modeling agency and they told her that she needed to lose 10 more pounds despite the fact that she was <span style="font-size: large;">5'10'' and 115 pounds</span>!!!! After that, she realized what she had done to herself and ended her modeling career. <b><u>She was an anorexic</u></b> for several years and had to go through all kinds of counseling. It was interesting to hear her story because, similar to myself, she did cut back on what she ate quite a bit but the huge problem was that she was an exercise bulimic. She would work out for <b><u>hours on end in order to maintain her tiny figure.</u></b> She turned her life around...recieved a degree in sports medicine and is now a personal trainer. She wasn't a tiny person. She was <span style="font-size: x-large;">HEALTHY, HAPPY, and SUCCESSFUL! How inspiring!</span></span><br />
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<span style="font-family: inherit;">You know what was <b>EVEN BETTER</b>?!??! I told her that the biggest thing that has helped me is the Lord. And you know what she said??? "<b><span style="font-size: x-large;">ME TOO</span></b>!" We both concurred that we have NO CLUE how people who don't have the Lord Jesus as their Savior ever recover. If I didn't have Him...I would have <span style="font-size: x-large;"><b><u>given up a long time ago</u></b></span>. </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: inherit;">To be honest..<b><u>.I KNOW that I didn't struggle and don't struggle as much as most anorexics/bulimics/etc.</u></b> I read other's blogs and my heart breaks for these people. This disorder is terrible and cruel. I have only felt a small amount of the misery that other's have. Do you want to know why? Because I am weak and God is strong. <b><span style="font-size: x-large;">Because I asked Him for help</span></b>, He gave me a special gift. The gift of strength to overcome. He is NOT going to force this on people. He doesn't force Himself on others. You have to ask. But when you do...<b>I KNOW FOR A FACT</b> that He will help you like He did me.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: inherit;">True healing can <b>only come through Him</b>. Like it or not...we are weak on our own. We need a heavenly power to give us the strength to fight those disordered thoughts. Here are some verses to prove this:</span><br />
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<span style="background-color: white;"><span style="font-family: inherit;"><span style="font-size: 12px; line-height: 18px;">“</span><strong style="font-size: 12px; line-height: 18px;">For I will restore health to you and heal you of your wounds,” says the Lord</strong><span style="font-size: 12px; line-height: 18px;">." (</span><a class="lbsBibleRef" data-reference="Jeremiah 30.17" data-version="esv" href="http://biblia.com/bible/esv/Jeremiah%2030.17" style="color: #012442; font-size: 12px; line-height: 18px; text-decoration: none;">Jeremiah 30:17</a><span style="font-size: 12px; line-height: 18px;">)</span></span></span><br />
<span style="font-family: inherit;"><span style="background-color: white; font-size: 12px; line-height: 18px;">“</span><strong style="background-color: white; font-size: 12px; line-height: 18px;">He heals the brokenhearted and binds up their wounds</strong><span style="background-color: white; font-size: 12px; line-height: 18px;"> … Great is our Lord, and mighty in power …” (</span><a class="lbsBibleRef" data-reference="Psalm 147.3" data-version="esv" href="http://biblia.com/bible/esv/Psalm%20147.3" style="color: #012442; font-size: 12px; line-height: 18px; text-decoration: none;"><span style="background-color: white;">Psalm 147:3</span></a><span style="background-color: white;"><span style="font-size: 12px; line-height: 18px;">)</span> </span></span><br />
<span style="font-family: inherit;"><span style="background-color: white;"><span style="font-size: 12px; line-height: 18px;">“</span><strong style="font-size: 12px; line-height: 18px;">But those who seek the Lord shall not lack any good thing.</strong><span style="font-size: 12px; line-height: 18px;">” (</span><a class="lbsBibleRef" data-reference="Psalm 34.10" data-version="esv" href="http://biblia.com/bible/esv/Psalm%2034.10" style="color: #012442; font-size: 12px; line-height: 18px; text-decoration: none;">Psalm 34:10</a><span style="font-size: 12px; line-height: 18px;">)</span></span> </span><br />
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<span style="background-color: white; line-height: 18px;"><b><span style="font-family: inherit; font-size: x-large;">HELP US!!!!!!!!!!!!</span></b></span><br />
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<span style="background-color: white;"><span style="font-family: inherit;"><strong style="font-size: 12px; line-height: 18px;">“Ask, and it will be given to you; seek, and you will find; knock, and it will be opened to you.”</strong><span style="font-size: 12px; line-height: 18px;"> (</span><a class="lbsBibleRef" data-reference="Matthew 7.7" data-version="esv" href="http://biblia.com/bible/esv/Matthew%207.7" style="color: #012442; font-size: 12px; line-height: 18px; text-decoration: none;">Matthew 7:7</a><span style="font-size: 12px; line-height: 18px;">)</span> </span></span><br />
<span style="background-color: white;"><span style="font-family: inherit;"><strong style="font-size: 12px; line-height: 18px;">“Let us therefore come boldly to the throne of grace, that we may obtain mercy and find grace to help in time of need.”</strong><span style="font-size: 12px; line-height: 18px;"> (</span><a class="lbsBibleRef" data-reference="Hebrews 4.16" data-version="esv" href="http://biblia.com/bible/esv/Hebrews%204.16" style="color: #012442; font-size: 12px; line-height: 18px; text-decoration: none;">Hebrews 4:16</a><span style="font-size: 12px; line-height: 18px;">)</span> </span></span><br />
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<span style="background-color: white;"><span style="font-family: inherit;"><span style="font-size: 12px; line-height: 18px;">Its that simple. <b>He wants to help us because He loves us.</b> If He didn't want to help me He never would have given me the strength to say NO to my disorder and change me heart from being bitter, lonely, full of sadness, and self hatred to a </span><span style="line-height: 18px;"><span style="font-size: x-large;"><b>heart full of joy, comfort, pleasure, self awareness, and desirous to live a full wonderful life!</b></span></span></span></span><br />
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Well I woke up <b>quite early</b> this morning and instead of just sitting around doing nothing, I figured I might as well post something.<br />
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This week my sisters, Mom, and I went to see :<br />
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</tbody></table>The first 30 minutes of the movie was filled with <span style="color: orange;">corny/cheeseball</span> ness that was kind of painful. But after that it was sweet, inspiring, animal loving, <u>heart warming</u>, <span style="color: red;">romantic</span> greatness!<br />
There was one theme in the movie that really <b>struck a chord</b> with me. Please watch the following video:<br />
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</div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: left;">While the "<b>20 seconds of insane courage</b>" spoken about in this movie is more about catching the girl you want, I felt like I could apply it to eating disorder recovery when I read <a href="http://amazingasset.com/2012/01/04/wiaw-continuing-to-push-myself/" target="_blank">this post</a> by Tessa @ <a href="http://amazingasset.com/">amazingasset.com</a>. During recovery, we are constantly trying to push ourselves to eat new things that we categorize as "fear foods" or "unhealthy". Its a <u>battle</u>. It seems as though it is impossible at times to just get the food down our gullets!</div><br />
<div class="" style="clear: both; text-align: left;">I would like to suggest to you that a major key to success might be held in this "<b>20 seconds of insane courage</b>". I don't know about you, but when I fail at succeeding to eat a fear food or just eat like a normal person, its usually because I thought about it <b>WAY</b> too much.</div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: left;"><br />
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<div style="text-align: left;">Those with eating disorders have a terrible disease of thinking too much. <span style="font-size: large;">We overthink EVERYTHING</span>. Sadly this is our reality:</div><table align="center" cellpadding="0" cellspacing="0" class="tr-caption-container" style="margin-left: auto; margin-right: auto; text-align: center;"><tbody>
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</tbody></table><div style="text-align: left;">We second guess <span style="font-size: large;">every bite we take</span>. We second guess that we <span style="font-size: large;">counted our calories correctly</span> so we re-calculate them for the 50th time that day. We second guess that the <span style="font-size: large;">scale REALLY read our weight right</span> so we re-way ourselves 15 times before we finally start to break down weeping because we gained 1 pound. We second guess that we will <span style="font-size: large;">be okay if we really start to recover</span>. We second guess that we will <span style="font-size: large;">be loved if we start eating pizza again</span>. We second guess that <span style="font-size: large;">not living an eating disordered</span> life is really "that much better". We think way too much and talk ourselves out of the key to our recovery. <b><span style="font-size: x-large;">EATING</span></b>!</div><div style="text-align: left;"><br />
</div><div style="text-align: left;">That <b>20 seconds of courage</b> is our golden opportunity to do the impossible. This is kind of how it feels at times: </div><table align="center" cellpadding="0" cellspacing="0" class="tr-caption-container" style="margin-left: auto; margin-right: auto; text-align: center;"><tbody>
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</tbody></table><div style="text-align: left;">Yes, it may feel impossible to NOT workout today. It may feel like you won't be able to stop eating cookies if you start eating them again. It may feel like you will lose <span style="font-size: large;">ALL control </span>if you stop eating ONLY "safe food". And I will admit, you <b>WILL LOSE CONTROL</b>. You will. You CAN'T control every area of your life anymore. <u>You have to let go</u>. You have to stop putting all that pressure on yourself. You have to take life and use it. End this sheltered life where all you do is the same routines/rituals each day. Try new foods! <b><span style="font-size: x-large;">Heck, LIVE ON THE WILD SIDE!</span></b></div><table align="center" cellpadding="0" cellspacing="0" class="tr-caption-container" style="margin-left: auto; margin-right: auto; text-align: center;"><tbody>
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</tbody></table><div style="text-align: left;">If you don't ACT within that "<b>20 (or maybe for your its 10 or 50) seconds of insane courage</b>" you end up disappointing yourself and not truly jumping on the recovery bandwagon. Its A LOT easier said then done, I know. But I encourage you that <span style="font-size: large;">IT GETS EASIER</span>. It does. Yes, you may hate yourself after you eat that piece of pie. But with each try, it gets better. You realize that "Yes, pie is worth it". You realize that you deserve to live a life of enjoyment. <b><span style="font-size: large;">You realize that gaining 10, 20, 30, yes even 40 pounds is HEALTHY and will make you HAPPY! </span></b></div><div style="text-align: left;"><br />
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</tbody></table><div style="text-align: left;">Take that inspiration/courage/bravery and ACT ON IT! Don't wait till tomorrow to start truly recovering. Act out of that "<b>20 seconds of insane courage</b>". Do something crazy and <b><span style="font-size: large;">DO IT OFTEN</span></b>! Live your life with arms <span style="font-size: x-large;">WIDE OPEN</span>! </div><table align="center" cellpadding="0" cellspacing="0" class="tr-caption-container" style="margin-left: auto; margin-right: auto; text-align: center;"><tbody>
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</tbody></table><div style="text-align: left;"></div><div style="text-align: left;"><u>Just do it</u>. <b><span style="font-size: large;">Like now</span></b>. <span style="font-size: x-large;"><b><u>I mean it</u></b></span>. Go to the kitchen. Find 1 thing that you are afraid to eat (find more than one thing if you can) and <b><span style="font-size: x-large;">EAT IT.</span></b> I'm not kidding. This is it. This is your time. Get off your computer, stop reading this crazy girl's blog, and <span style="font-size: x-large;">start recovering</span>. Remember:</div><div style="text-align: left;"><br />
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</div>Unknownnoreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2359436161362393268.post-11709417987506026582012-01-04T10:03:00.001-08:002012-01-04T10:09:41.586-08:00Life changes A LOT when your havin' fun!<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"></div>Hello! The last time I wrote a post was on April 28th 2011. As I read back at that old post, I can't believe that it was less than a year ago. So much of my life has changed (i.e. improved/digressed). Everyone should read posts of theirs from a year ago. Highly therapeutic to see the changes that have been made since that time.<br />
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I... am now a senior in college (WHAT THE WHA???? Crazy how time flies by).<br />
I.... am officially an unofficial aunt (friend that is basically a sister had a baby boy...i.e. cutest child to ever live).<br />
I... received 3rd place in my first triathlon (I'm an addict now)!<br />
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I...transferred from community college to big kid school (a 4 year school).<br />
I...finished the Bible Study I was in and began to "Break Free".<br />
Tim Tebow moved to my state so that he could be the Broncos QB and get married to me.<br />
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<tr><td class="tr-caption" style="text-align: center;"><blockquote class="tr_bq">"Thank you for choosing me to play for the Broncos! Now I will get to meet and marry Deborah Rose!"- <b>Tim Tebow (<strike>actual quote</strike>... or not.)</b></blockquote></td></tr>
</tbody></table>I... regained a friendship from childhood that I never thought would be rekindled.<br />
I... went backpacking for the first time in my life and didn't get eaten by bears!<br />
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<tr><td style="text-align: center;"><img height="240" src="http://a2.sphotos.ak.fbcdn.net/hphotos-ak-snc6/267551_10150236744998227_699683226_7571683_6025922_n.jpg" style="margin-left: auto; margin-right: auto;" width="320" /></td></tr>
<tr><td class="tr-caption" style="text-align: center;">Probably one of the coolest things I've done.</td></tr>
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I... really started to live my life with the goal of serving/honoring the Lord Jesus Christ.<br />
I... started a new job that I LOVE with great people (including my big sis).<br />
I... passed my Calculus class. PRAISE GOD!<br />
I... bought these cowboy boots (a MAJOR life event :P):<br />
<a href="http://www.sheplers.com/i/p/045/045463/045463_22_p1_550x550.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="clear: left; float: left; margin-bottom: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img alt="Old West Women's Distressed Leather Cowgirl Boots - Snip Toe" border="0" height="200" src="http://www.sheplers.com/i/p/045/045463/045463_22_p1_550x550.jpg" width="129" /></a>I... started spending money on myself and giving more to charities/my church (God gave me my money.....its time to USE IT rather than lock it up like a money hog).<br />
I... finally started skipping days working out. If I don't feel like working out....I skip it. So much happier.<br />
I... stopped weighing myself. I have NO CLUE what I weigh. Really. Like no clue. And I don't care. Ha.<br />
I...met/had dinner with/ talked for an hour with/ got a signed shirt/ listened to a concert with/by my favorite singer : Priscilla Ahn!<br />
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<tr><td style="text-align: center;"><img height="240" src="http://a5.sphotos.ak.fbcdn.net/hphotos-ak-ash4/316542_648211971573_72204410_33796172_2047162247_n.jpg" style="margin-left: auto; margin-right: auto;" width="320" /></td></tr>
<tr><td class="tr-caption" style="text-align: center;">She was SO sweet....we are all practically BFF's with her now.</td></tr>
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I... stopped going to my counselor. Don't know if this is a good thing or not yet.<br />
I... have a lot more friends now. Church, work, school, etc. have all given me great friends and now I finally enjoy going out! Even people who I met through The Thorn (previous post) are some of my closest friends. Yay for new friends!<br />
I... went on a week long trip to Oregon.<br />
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<tr><td class="tr-caption" style="text-align: center;">On the Oregon Coast. Twas gorgeous!</td></tr>
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<span style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-family: inherit;">I...have conquered pretty much every fear food I have. I now drink milk every day. Eat oatmeal only a few times a week for breakfast. Eat bread/bagel/some grain every day. I eat eggs again without feeling guilty. Have cut back on stuffing my face with salads. Have cookies/cake/pie/ice cream whenever I get the chance.You get the idea.</span></span> <br />
I... hiked and then drove to the top of Pikes Peak for the first time.<br />
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<tr><td class="tr-caption" style="text-align: center;">I'm on top of the WORLD!!!</td></tr>
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I... had my first manicure ever. WHY have I not done this before??!?!?! Heaven on earth.<br />
I... have a tummy roll, love handles, cellulite, and skin under my chin. I'm learning to deal with it.<br />
I... ran my first Dirty Girl Mud Run with wonderful sisters and friends.<br />
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<tr><td class="tr-caption" style="text-align: center;">We called ourselves the "Dirty Denver Divas" I.E. the "Triple D's"!</td></tr>
</tbody></table>I... had a wonderful Christmas with LOTS of delicious food. Yeah I probably gained weight. Who cares.<br />
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<tr><td class="tr-caption" style="text-align: center;">Yeah. I don't kid around with little portions. That's a thing of the past. LOAD ME UP!</td></tr>
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Well I could go on tooting my own horn and showing off all of the fun things I have done, but I'm bored so you probably are too. All the things that I have been able to conquer really have not been through my own strength. I have a lot of support. Most of it from my Savior. I have truly learned that "I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me" (Philippians 4:13)<br />
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One more thing: On that plate of food is something that I made for the Christmas party I was at in that picture. It turned out great! I made some modifications that I think enhanced it:<br />
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<div class="recipe-meta clrfix" style="background-color: white; border-bottom-color: rgb(221, 221, 221); border-bottom-style: dotted; border-bottom-width: 1px; font-family: arial, helvetica, clean, sans-serif; font-size: 12px; line-height: 15px; margin-bottom: 14px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; outline-color: initial; outline-style: none; outline-width: initial; padding-bottom: 7px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; zoom: 1;"><h1 class="recipe-title" style="font-family: 'trebuchet ms', sans-serif; font-size: 20px; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; outline-color: initial; outline-style: none; outline-width: initial; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;">Bacon and Brussels Sprout Hash</h1><div style="line-height: 20px; margin-bottom: 7px; outline-color: initial; outline-style: none; outline-width: initial; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;">Recipe courtesy Tyler Florence, 2008</div></div><div class="recipe-summary clrfix" style="background-color: white; border-bottom-color: rgb(221, 221, 221); border-bottom-style: dotted; border-bottom-width: 1px; float: left; font-family: arial, helvetica, clean, sans-serif; font-size: 10px; margin-bottom: 7px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 14px; margin-top: 7px; outline-color: initial; outline-style: none; outline-width: initial; padding-bottom: 7px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; width: 428px; zoom: 1;"><br />
<dl class="times" style="border-right-color: rgb(221, 221, 221); border-right-style: dotted; border-right-width: 1px; float: left; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; outline-color: initial; outline-style: none; outline-width: initial; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 7px; padding-top: 0px; width: 200px;"><dt style="background-attachment: initial; background-clip: initial; background-color: initial; background-image: none; background-origin: initial; clear: both; color: #2f2f2f; cursor: default; float: left; font-family: arial, serif; font-weight: bold; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; outline-color: initial; outline-style: none; outline-width: initial; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; width: 110px;">Prep Time:</dt>
<dd class="prep-time" style="float: right; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; outline-color: initial; outline-style: none; outline-width: initial; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;">20 min</dd>
<dt style="background-attachment: initial; background-clip: initial; background-color: initial; background-image: none; background-origin: initial; clear: both; color: #2f2f2f; cursor: default; float: left; font-family: arial, serif; font-weight: bold; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; outline-color: initial; outline-style: none; outline-width: initial; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; width: 110px;">Inactive Prep Time:</dt>
<dd class="wait-time" style="float: right; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; outline-color: initial; outline-style: none; outline-width: initial; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;">--</dd>
<dt style="background-attachment: initial; background-clip: initial; background-color: initial; background-image: none; background-origin: initial; clear: both; color: #2f2f2f; cursor: default; float: left; font-family: arial, serif; font-weight: bold; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; outline-color: initial; outline-style: none; outline-width: initial; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; width: 110px;">Cook Time:</dt>
<dd class="cook-time" style="float: right; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; outline-color: initial; outline-style: none; outline-width: initial; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;">25 min</dd></dl><dl class="level" style="border-right-color: rgb(221, 221, 221); border-right-style: dotted; border-right-width: 1px; float: left; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; outline-color: initial; outline-style: none; outline-width: initial; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 7px; padding-right: 28px; padding-top: 0px;"><dt style="background-attachment: initial; background-clip: initial; background-color: initial; background-image: none; background-origin: initial; color: #2f2f2f; cursor: default; font-family: arial, serif; font-weight: bold; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; outline-color: initial; outline-style: none; outline-width: initial; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;">Level:</dt>
<dd class="difficulty" style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; outline-color: initial; outline-style: none; outline-width: initial; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;">Easy</dd></dl><dl class="serves" style="float: left; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; outline-color: initial; outline-style: none; outline-width: initial; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 7px; padding-right: 7px; padding-top: 0px;"><dt style="background-attachment: initial; background-clip: initial; background-color: initial; background-image: none; background-origin: initial; color: #2f2f2f; cursor: default; font-family: arial, serif; font-weight: bold; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; outline-color: initial; outline-style: none; outline-width: initial; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;">Serves:</dt>
<dd class="yield" style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; outline-color: initial; outline-style: none; outline-width: initial; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;">4 to 6 servings</dd></dl></div><div class="recipe-image" style="background-color: white; clear: right; float: right; font-family: arial, helvetica, clean, sans-serif; font-size: 12px; line-height: 15px; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; outline-color: initial; outline-style: none; outline-width: initial; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;"><img height="120" src="http://img.foodnetwork.com/FOOD/2009/02/25/TU0609-1_Bacon-and-Brussels-Sprout-Hash_s4x3_med.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-color: initial; border-color: initial; border-image: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-style: initial; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px; outline-color: initial; outline-style: none; outline-width: initial; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;" width="160" /></div><div class="rcp-wrap clrfix" style="background-color: white; clear: left; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; outline-color: initial; outline-style: none; outline-width: initial; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; zoom: 1;"><div class="body-text" style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; outline-color: initial; outline-style: none; outline-width: initial; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;"><h2 class="kv-ingred" style="font-family: 'trebuchet ms', sans-serif; font-size: 13px; line-height: 15px; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 14px; outline-color: initial; outline-style: none; outline-width: initial; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;">Ingredients</h2><ul class="kv-ingred-list1" style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 7px; margin-top: 3px; outline-color: initial; outline-style: none; outline-width: initial; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 7px; padding-top: 0px;"><li class="ingredient" style="background-attachment: initial; background-clip: initial; background-color: initial; background-image: none; background-origin: initial; font-family: arial, helvetica, clean, sans-serif; font-size: 12px; line-height: 20px; list-style-image: initial; list-style-position: initial; list-style-type: none; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; outline-color: initial; outline-style: none; outline-width: initial; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;"><a class="crosslink" debug="0 21" href="http://www.foodterms.com/encyclopedia/olive-oil/index.html" style="color: #2f2f2f; cursor: default; outline-color: initial; outline-style: none; outline-width: initial; text-decoration: none;">Extra-virgin olive oil</a></li>
<li class="ingredient" style="background-attachment: initial; background-clip: initial; background-color: initial; background-image: none; background-origin: initial; font-family: arial, helvetica, clean, sans-serif; font-size: 12px; line-height: 20px; list-style-image: initial; list-style-position: initial; list-style-type: none; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; outline-color: initial; outline-style: none; outline-width: initial; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;">4 slices thick-cut bacon</li>
<li class="ingredient" style="background-attachment: initial; background-clip: initial; background-color: initial; background-image: none; background-origin: initial; font-family: arial, helvetica, clean, sans-serif; font-size: 12px; line-height: 20px; list-style-image: initial; list-style-position: initial; list-style-type: none; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; outline-color: initial; outline-style: none; outline-width: initial; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;">4 sprigs fresh thyme</li>
<li class="ingredient" style="background-attachment: initial; background-clip: initial; background-color: initial; background-image: none; background-origin: initial; font-family: arial, helvetica, clean, sans-serif; font-size: 12px; line-height: 20px; list-style-image: initial; list-style-position: initial; list-style-type: none; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; outline-color: initial; outline-style: none; outline-width: initial; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;">2 pints Brussels sprouts, cut in 1/2 <b>(I kept them whole)</b></li>
<li class="ingredient" style="background-attachment: initial; background-clip: initial; background-color: initial; background-image: none; background-origin: initial; font-family: arial, helvetica, clean, sans-serif; font-size: 12px; line-height: 20px; list-style-image: initial; list-style-position: initial; list-style-type: none; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; outline-color: initial; outline-style: none; outline-width: initial; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;">1 pound <a class="crosslink" debug="130 148" href="http://www.foodterms.com/encyclopedia/potato/index.html" style="color: #2f2f2f; cursor: default; outline-color: initial; outline-style: none; outline-width: initial; text-decoration: none;">fingerling potatoes</a>, split down the middle <b>(I used large potatoes that I just cut into cubes)</b></li>
<li class="ingredient" style="background-attachment: initial; background-clip: initial; background-color: initial; background-image: none; background-origin: initial; font-family: arial, helvetica, clean, sans-serif; font-size: 12px; line-height: 20px; list-style-image: initial; list-style-position: initial; list-style-type: none; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; outline-color: initial; outline-style: none; outline-width: initial; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;">1/2 pound red pearl onions, peeled <b>(I just sliced 1 red onion)</b></li>
<li class="ingredient" style="background-attachment: initial; background-clip: initial; background-color: initial; background-image: none; background-origin: initial; font-family: arial, helvetica, clean, sans-serif; font-size: 12px; line-height: 20px; list-style-image: initial; list-style-position: initial; list-style-type: none; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; outline-color: initial; outline-style: none; outline-width: initial; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;">Kosher salt and freshly ground black pepper</li>
<li class="ingredient" style="background-attachment: initial; background-clip: initial; background-color: initial; background-image: none; background-origin: initial; list-style-image: initial; list-style-position: initial; list-style-type: none; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; outline-color: initial; outline-style: none; outline-width: initial; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;"><span style="font-family: arial, helvetica, clean, sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: 12px; line-height: 20px;">1/2 cup low-sodium chicken broth (<b>I omitted this)</b></span></span></li>
<li class="ingredient" style="background-attachment: initial; background-clip: initial; background-color: initial; background-image: none; background-origin: initial; font-family: arial, helvetica, clean, sans-serif; font-size: 12px; line-height: 20px; list-style-image: initial; list-style-position: initial; list-style-type: none; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; outline-color: initial; outline-style: none; outline-width: initial; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;">2 tablespoons balsamic vinegar</li>
<li class="ingredient" style="background-attachment: initial; background-clip: initial; background-color: initial; background-image: none; background-origin: initial; list-style-image: initial; list-style-position: initial; list-style-type: none; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; outline-color: initial; outline-style: none; outline-width: initial; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;"><span style="font-family: arial, helvetica, clean, sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: 12px; line-height: 20px;">1/4 bunch </span></span><a class="crosslink" debug="346 362" href="http://www.foodterms.com/encyclopedia/parsley/index.html" style="color: #2f2f2f; cursor: default; font-family: arial, helvetica, clean, sans-serif; font-size: 12px; line-height: 20px; outline-color: initial; outline-style: none; outline-width: initial; text-decoration: none;">flat-leaf parsley</a><span style="font-family: arial, helvetica, clean, sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: 12px; line-height: 20px;">, leaves roughly chopped <b>(I don't like parsley so I omitted this)</b></span></span></li>
<li class="ingredient" style="background-attachment: initial; background-clip: initial; background-color: initial; background-image: none; background-origin: initial; font-family: arial, helvetica, clean, sans-serif; font-size: 12px; line-height: 20px; list-style-image: initial; list-style-position: initial; list-style-type: none; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; outline-color: initial; outline-style: none; outline-width: initial; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;"><b>Additions:</b></li>
<li class="ingredient" style="background-attachment: initial; background-clip: initial; background-color: initial; background-image: none; background-origin: initial; font-family: arial, helvetica, clean, sans-serif; font-size: 12px; line-height: 20px; list-style-image: initial; list-style-position: initial; list-style-type: none; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; outline-color: initial; outline-style: none; outline-width: initial; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;"><b>2 TBS. minced garlic</b></li>
<li class="ingredient" style="background-attachment: initial; background-clip: initial; background-color: initial; background-image: none; background-origin: initial; font-family: arial, helvetica, clean, sans-serif; font-size: 12px; line-height: 20px; list-style-image: initial; list-style-position: initial; list-style-type: none; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; outline-color: initial; outline-style: none; outline-width: initial; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;"><b>1 tsp. ground sage</b></li>
<li class="ingredient" style="background-attachment: initial; background-clip: initial; background-color: initial; background-image: none; background-origin: initial; font-family: arial, helvetica, clean, sans-serif; font-size: 12px; line-height: 20px; list-style-image: initial; list-style-position: initial; list-style-type: none; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; outline-color: initial; outline-style: none; outline-width: initial; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;"><b>1/2 tsp. crushed red pepper flakes</b></li>
<li class="ingredient" style="background-attachment: initial; background-clip: initial; background-color: initial; background-image: none; background-origin: initial; font-family: arial, helvetica, clean, sans-serif; font-size: 12px; line-height: 20px; list-style-image: initial; list-style-position: initial; list-style-type: none; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; outline-color: initial; outline-style: none; outline-width: initial; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;"><b>1 tsp. chopped rosemary</b></li>
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Well reading this post probably took up half of your day so I will stop! Thank you for reading and enjoy the rest of your day!Unknownnoreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2359436161362393268.post-51736261155874823452011-04-28T16:03:00.000-07:002011-04-28T16:03:03.756-07:00I'm back and Bootylicious Award!<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Georgia, 'Times New Roman', serif;">Hola Chicas!</span><br />
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<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Georgia, 'Times New Roman', serif;">So I am not even going to go through that whole....sorry I have been gone for so long....life is crazy.....my school takes up my whole life..........I have been reading all of your blogs.........ect........you know the story already. :P</span><br />
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<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Georgia, 'Times New Roman', serif;">As I wrote about in my last post, the Thorn was amazing. Life changing. I LOVE EASY THEATRE! haha! Here is a picture of myself and my sister in our Isrealite garb:</span><br />
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<tr><td class="tr-caption" style="text-align: center;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Georgia, 'Times New Roman', serif;">The make-up people literally splattered and painted us with bronzer.</span></td></tr>
</tbody></table><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Georgia, 'Times New Roman', serif;">God healed so many broken hearts over the weekend. I just received an email from the director...and over 3,000 known people let Christ heal them after seeing the play. (and so many more I am sure that we don't know of) I met tons of wonderful people. It has helped so much in my recovery as well. Seriously, since it ended I feel so much lighter, freer, and less concerned about appearances.</span><br />
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</span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Georgia, 'Times New Roman', serif;">I recieved a bootlyicious award from the lovely princess lila at <a href="http://friendlyflower.blogspot.com/">http://friendlyflower.blogspot.com/</a>! </span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Georgia, 'Times New Roman', serif;"><br />
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<div style="color: #424242; font-size: 15px; line-height: 20px; text-align: center;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Georgia, 'Times New Roman', serif;">1. Post this award with the picture and name whoever tagged you in it</span></div><div style="color: #424242; font-size: 15px; line-height: 20px; text-align: center;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Georgia, 'Times New Roman', serif;">2. Do the STUFF</span></div><div style="color: #424242; font-size: 15px; line-height: 20px; text-align: center;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Georgia, 'Times New Roman', serif;">3. Award to 7 others and tell them you did so!</span></div><div style="color: #424242; font-size: 15px; line-height: 20px; text-align: center;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Georgia, 'Times New Roman', serif;">THE STUFF:</span></div><div style="color: #424242; font-size: 15px; line-height: 20px; text-align: center;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Georgia, 'Times New Roman', serif;">1. Name 3 things that are lying right next to you</span></div><div style="color: #424242; font-size: 15px; line-height: 20px; text-align: center;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Georgia, 'Times New Roman', serif;">2. Name 2 foods you cannot live without</span></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"></div><div style="color: #424242; font-size: 15px; line-height: 20px; text-align: center;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Georgia, 'Times New Roman', serif;">3. Name 1 thing you did today</span></div></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Georgia, 'Times New Roman', serif;"><br />
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<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Georgia, 'Times New Roman', serif;">Here we go with "The Stuff":</span><br />
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<tr><td class="tr-caption" style="text-align: center;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Georgia, 'Times New Roman', serif;">Not really lying next me, but I love this photo of my sis and I hung up on a piece of corkboard....you have to see my corkboard wall!</span></td></tr>
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<tr><td class="tr-caption" style="text-align: center;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Georgia, 'Times New Roman', serif;">Calculator, folder, accounting textbook....YIPEE! I love accounting so much! </span></td></tr>
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<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Georgia, 'Times New Roman', serif;">2. Ohhhh man.....your kidding me right?!?!? 2 Favorite Foods!??!?! Alright.....here it goes</span><br />
<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Georgia, 'Times New Roman', serif;">Yogurt and Peanut butter!!!!! Oh and those two things together is awesome!</span><br />
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<tr><td class="tr-caption" style="text-align: center;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Georgia, 'Times New Roman', serif;">Oh man.....with graham crackers......can that be on the list too?!?!?!</span></td></tr>
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<tr><td class="tr-caption" style="text-align: center;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Georgia, 'Times New Roman', serif;">I said it before and I'll say it again. I LOVE THIS STUDY!</span></td></tr>
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<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Georgia, 'Times New Roman', serif;">:<a href="http://katy-rediscovered.blogspot.com/">Katy</a></span><br />
<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Georgia, 'Times New Roman', serif;"><a href="http://lifeworthloving.blogspot.com/">Lily</a></span><br />
<a href="http://anorexictoplussizemodel.blogspot.com/"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Georgia, 'Times New Roman', serif;">http://anorexictoplussizemodel.blogspot.com/</span></a><br />
<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Georgia, 'Times New Roman', serif;"><a href="http://emsalot.blogspot.com/">Em</a></span><br />
<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Georgia, 'Times New Roman', serif;"><a href="http://haleylovesgreen.blogspot.com/">Haley</a></span><br />
<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Georgia, 'Times New Roman', serif;"><a href="http://abiteofgoodness.blogspot.com/">L</a></span><br />
<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Georgia, 'Times New Roman', serif;"><a href="http://actarr9494.wordpress.com/">http://actarr9494.wordpress.com/</a></span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Georgia, 'Times New Roman', serif;"><br />
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<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Georgia, 'Times New Roman', serif;">It is snackaroon time! See ya lata!</span><br />
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</div>Unknownnoreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2359436161362393268.post-17546567529741952162011-03-30T04:51:00.000-07:002011-03-30T04:51:43.286-07:00Long time no see<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Georgia, 'Times New Roman', serif;">Hello! I apologize for being MIA for the past few weeks. Thankfully, it is not because things have been bad.....they have been <b><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: large;">MUY BUENO</span></b>!!!!!!!!!!!! (that is ALL I remember from taking Spanish for 2 years....oh dear) Thank you to all for your sweet comments and encouragement on my last post! I pray and hope that you all have found relief like I have.</span><br />
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<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Georgia, 'Times New Roman', serif;">How have things been great?!? Well....for starters...the last thing I go to bed thinking about and the first thing I think of when I wake up <span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: x-large;">HAVE NOT BEEN ABOUT HATING MYSELF!!!! YAY! </span>This has spilled over into the rest of my day too. I am finally going sometimes a few hours without thinking about food, how fat I am, etc. IT IS AMAZING. <b><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: large;">Absolutely life changing.</span></b> I am not writing in a food journal anymore which even though it was SO helpful at the start....had turned into a restriction tool.</span><br />
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<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Georgia, 'Times New Roman', serif;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: x-large;">I AM INTUITIVELY EATING!</span> Or at least trying to. It is really hard to KNOW what your body is wanting. Am I full? Am I hungry? But it is getting easier......at first I dropped some major poundage......I was eating too healthy....I was full all the time but I was full from eating large salads. So I hiked up my calorie intake again and I feel much better. Lately I have been craving chocolate. I have NEVER been a huge chocolate fan. <span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: large;">But lately I am going CRAZY for chocolate! </span><b>Not a bad</b> thing since my dad gives me chocolate bars weekly! haha! :D And guess what?!?! I am letting myself eat them! YAY!</span><br />
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<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Georgia, 'Times New Roman', serif;">I have been <span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: x-large;"><b>so stressed out </b></span>about life though......I am not doing as well in school as I would hope to be doing. I had a piano recital last week which I was cramming for. I can't find a job! :( I am also.....drum roll please..........<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: x-large;"><b>IN THIS PLAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!</b></span></span><br />
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After that whole twinkie episode.......<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: x-large;">I was cured.</span> I will forever be a twinkie lover (okay I actually am not the biggest fan of twinkies but since I ate that twinkie.....I have been a new girl!) I have been eating pure JUNK and I don't give a crap. Not one bit. In the last day I have (with some help) eaten an entire chocolate bar. I don't really know how it happened. It just did. <span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: x-large;">And I don't care!</span> No....I am not binging and all that....I am just desperately trying to gain weight so I can stop living in this ED world.<br />
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</div><div>As far as recovery goes.....<b><u>it is going really well.</u></b> Still have my hard moments but it gets easier every day. Last night I got into an argument with my sister. I was feeling really down on myself afterwards and therefore wanted to just skip dinner. I seriously was thinking "<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: large;">Why am I recovering? I am such a mess up and failure anyways. Might as well punish myself and not eat.</span>" I sat their and battled whether or not to eat. Then I started thinking about how much I have gained since I have recovered. And I thought about how not eating is NOT going to solve my problems, make me happier, or make people like me more. <b><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: large;">So I ate! And it was yummy too!</span></b> My amazing sister made oatmeal pancakes, eggs, potatoes, and fruit for dinner! These pancakes were THE BEST PANCAKES EVER!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Seriously! She added tons of cinnamon, nutmeg, and cloves which made them kind of spicy! <b><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: x-large;">OH YUM! I just love strong flavored food! </span></b>Oh and then right before she flipped them she sprinkled slivered almonds on top. They added a great crunch! (oh and you better believe <b><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: large;">I spread pb on top </span></b>of these and then syrup and then yogurt! YUM!)</div><div><img height="212" src="http://www.withamymac.com/news/wp-content/uploads/2010/10/food-journal.jpg" width="320" /> SO SICK OF FOOD JOURNALING!</div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: x-large;"><b>Oh and GUESS WHAT!?!?!??! I am 5 pounds from my goal weight. Five! Thats it!</b></span> How has this gone SO FAST!?!??!? I just want it to be over. I am so tired of weighing myself, <b>journaling my food</b>, and trying to gain weight. I want to get back to a life <b>where eating isn't what I am focused on. I want to stop worrying about how much I weigh</b>! I am so over it. 5 pounds to freedom. Hahah! <span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: x-large;">Well I hope you all have a wonderful day!</span></div><div><br />
</div><div>Its YOU time!</div><div>When is your spring break?</div><div>Do you like snow?</div><div>Do you like lots of spice and flavor in your foods?</div>Unknownnoreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2359436161362393268.post-18779382869425183212011-03-05T07:15:00.000-08:002011-03-05T07:35:41.715-08:00Extra! Extra! Pictures all about it! heehee :D<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Georgia, 'Times New Roman', serif;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: x-large;">Good morning! Haaaaaaaaaaaaaapppppy Saturday! Yay! </span>And happy spring break for those of you who are on it! My lovely professors are so sweet and put all the big midterms AFTER spring break! So guess what I will be doing??!?! Haha! No really....I don't mind! It is kind of really nice to have the extra time to study during spring break! I have a couple fun things planned so no worries!</span><br />
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</span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Georgia, 'Times New Roman', serif;">We are going to see the Adjustment Bureau today! <span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: x-large;">My favorite actress and my favorite actor in one movie that is packed with romance and action!?!?!?! LOVE! </span>Super excited!</span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Georgia, 'Times New Roman', serif;"><br />
</span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Georgia, 'Times New Roman', serif;"><b>This is what I want to strive towards in my life:</b> "</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="-webkit-border-horizontal-spacing: 2px; -webkit-border-vertical-spacing: 2px; border-collapse: collapse; line-height: 27px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Georgia, 'Times New Roman', serif;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: 19px;">Therefore, as God's chosen people, holy and dearly loved, clothe yourselves with compassion, kindness, humility, gentleness and patience. Bear with each other and forgive whatever grievances you may have against one another. Forgive as the Lord forgave you. </span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: x-large;"><b>And over all these virtues put on love, which binds them all together in perfect unity</b></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: 19px;">." -Colossians 3:12-14</span></span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: x-large;"><br />
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<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: x-large;">Questions for you:</span><br />
Do you like fish tacos?<br />
Would you see the Adjustment Bureau?<br />
Do you like work out videos? Any good ones you know of?<br />
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</div>Unknownnoreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2359436161362393268.post-59559739662684499042011-03-02T22:55:00.000-08:002011-03-02T22:55:20.577-08:00The marathon of life.So these past two weeks I feel like I have run a marathon of life. I have felt so many things, conquered so many battles, and discovered so many truths. I have a TON to say.<br />
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First on the agenda is to tell you that.....................drum roll please............................. <b><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: large;">I HAVE MY PERIOD AGAIN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!</span></b> YAY! It started on Sunday. HALLELUJAH! I ran downstairs with the biggest smile plastered on my face and told my mom and anna. We were all jumping up and down hugging....it was awesome. Then Sarah joined in! I have never celebrated over a period before. :P<br />
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After this....I cried. <b><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: x-large;">Tears of joy. Pure joy.</span></b> I felt the happiest I have felt in years. Thank God. I am not broken! I am a working female! ahahha!<br />
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Monday and Tuesday were awesome. I could not stop smiling. I was on cloud nine! Then after counseling on Tuesday afternoon (yesterday) I started to struggle. We kind of re-hashed some things and it really upset me. It was good though. But since then I have been struggling. I hate this<b><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: x-large;"> yo-yoing</span></b>. How can I go from being the happiest and most confidant that I have been in YEARS to feeling ugly, sad, and awful the next day. I don't get it. But I am not going to let it overtake me. I will feel that joy again! I know I will<br />
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Something incredible happened today. So I was at school and I was walking to my car. I go to a school that is not in the best part of town. There was a young girl sitting on her pink backpack who, while I was walking by, asked me what time it was. I told her 3:15. She proceeded to tell me that her dad was picking her up. I asked her if she wouldn't mind if I sat with her while she waited for her dad (for safety reasons). She said yes. So we proceeded to talk.<br />
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<b><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: large;">She basically told me her life story</span></b>. Over a 15 minute conversation I learned all of the following things from her:<br />
She was <b>13 years old</b>.<br />
She had a friend at school that told her that she <b>didn't eat healthfully enough</b> when she ate a sandwich, a soda pop, and a fruit roll up for lunch.<br />
This friend also would tell her <b><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: large;">how many calories her food had and that she shouldn't be eating that food because it would make her fat.</span></b><br />
Her brother was taken away by the state because of her <b>physically abusive stepfather at the age of 3</b>.<br />
Her <span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: x-large;">mom died when she was 3.</span><br />
She lives with her birth dad, grandpa, and grandma.<br />
Her grandpa is <b>abusive.</b><br />
She used to <b><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: x-large;">starve herself and skip all meals </span></b>except for lunch at school.<br />
Her boyfriend broke- up with her to be with a girl who "<b>wears mini-skirts, is thin,</b> and has blonde hair."<br />
She said that she <b><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: large;">never was able to have a childhood </span></b>and that she had to grow up and take care of herself.<br />
She lost her <span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: x-large;">best friend for life this year.</span><br />
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She told me ALL of these things in 15 minutes. <b>She even cried while she was talking about her grandpa</b>. It was terrible. Awful. <span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: x-large;">I wanted to cry, hug her, scream at all the people who have hurt her, and take her home to live with me.</span> I tried to tell her about Jesus. I asked her, "Do you know who Jesus is?" she said that her grandpa was a catholic and the rest of her family is lutheran. So I asked her, "Do you believe in Jesus?" She never answered. I proceeded to tell her that I am anorexic and that Jesus is THE ONE who is carrying me through. I told her to pray and go to him whenever she felt alone or sad. She ran off when her dad came to pick her up and didn't even say bye. It was the shortest most eye opening conversation of my life. I can't stop thinking about her. I don't even know her name. <span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: x-large;"><b>I KNOW GOD SENT her into my life. I KNOW IT. I don't know what to do with it though. </b></span><br />
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I want to do something. I want to make a difference. I want to talk to girls who are struggling. I have this disorder for a reason. <b>What am I going to do with it?</b> Hold onto it until I wither away...or push it away and help others. <span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: x-large;"><b>I choose the latter</b></span>. Please pray for this girl.Unknownnoreply@blogger.com4tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2359436161362393268.post-18730998878640032852011-02-26T10:05:00.000-08:002011-03-08T07:46:58.310-08:00National Eating Disorder Awareness Week<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Georgia, 'Times New Roman', serif;">This is something that I wrote to all of my facebook friends. It was hard to do. I like to just keep my mouth shut and not talk about hard things. <b><u>But I did it. And if it helps just one person....it was totally worth it.</u></b></span><br />
<img src="http://photos-c.ak.fbcdn.net/hphotos-ak-ash1/180924_10150094121316227_707896226_6864432_3652081_a.jpg" /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #333333; font-family: 'lucida grande', tahoma, verdana, arial, sans-serif; font-size: 11px; line-height: 16px;">I have had this topic on my heart especially this week because it is National Eating Disorders Week. I wanted to write to you all (yes I tagged practically all of my friends) about something that is very important and personal to me. I don’t want anyone to feel like they have to read this (sorry for the length). I am not going to post any grotesque pictures for you to see. However, if you have an eating disorder, know someone who has one, or have never met someone who has an eating disorder, I hope that this helps you to realize the significance and detrimental consequences of this disease that is skyrocketing in our society today.</span><br />
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<div style="color: #333333; font-family: 'lucida grande', tahoma, verdana, arial, sans-serif; font-size: 11px; line-height: 1.5em; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; text-align: left;"></div><div style="color: #333333; font-family: 'lucida grande', tahoma, verdana, arial, sans-serif; font-size: 11px; line-height: 1.5em; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; text-align: left;"><br />
</div><div style="color: #333333; font-family: 'lucida grande', tahoma, verdana, arial, sans-serif; font-size: 11px; line-height: 1.5em; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; text-align: left;">Did you know that out of all the mental illnesses, eating disorders are the number one killer? Currently, there are <strong>11 million</strong> people in the United States suffer from anorexia nervosa and bulimia. Millions more suffer from binge eating disorder. Eating disorders are mental illnesses just like depression, schizophrenia, or Alzheimer’s. The National Association of Anorexia Nervosa and Associated Disorders found <strong>18-20%</strong> of anorexics will be <strong>dead </strong>after 20 years due to suicide or heart failure and only <strong>30-40</strong>% will ever fully recover. Those with anorexia nervosa are <strong>12 times</strong> as likely to die between the ages of 15 and 24 than <strong>ANY OTHER</strong> causes of death for females. Not many people know these facts.</div><div style="color: #333333; font-family: 'lucida grande', tahoma, verdana, arial, sans-serif; font-size: 11px; line-height: 1.5em; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; text-align: left;"><br />
</div><div style="color: #333333; font-family: 'lucida grande', tahoma, verdana, arial, sans-serif; font-size: 11px; line-height: 1.5em; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; text-align: left;">It is National Eating Disorders Awareness Week. However, not many people talk about eating disorders because they are:</div><ol style="color: #333333; font-family: 'lucida grande', tahoma, verdana, arial, sans-serif; font-size: 11px; line-height: 16px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 25px; padding-right: 10px; padding-top: 0px;"><li>A sensitive topic</li>
<li>Viewed as “selfish” and “vain”</li>
<li>Misunderstood.</li>
</ol><div style="color: #333333; font-family: 'lucida grande', tahoma, verdana, arial, sans-serif; font-size: 11px; line-height: 1.5em; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; text-align: left;">This is seen by the fact that funding for schizophrenia is <strong>over 210 times</strong> as much as the funding for the research of eating disorders. Yet, the mortality rate for those with eating disorders shoots way above the mortality rate of those with schizophrenia.</div><div style="color: #333333; font-family: 'lucida grande', tahoma, verdana, arial, sans-serif; font-size: 11px; line-height: 1.5em; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; text-align: left;"><br />
</div><div style="color: #333333; font-family: 'lucida grande', tahoma, verdana, arial, sans-serif; font-size: 11px; line-height: 1.5em; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; text-align: left;"><span><strong>What are the eating disorders? </strong></span></div><div style="color: #333333; font-family: 'lucida grande', tahoma, verdana, arial, sans-serif; font-size: 11px; line-height: 1.5em; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; text-align: left;">Eating disorders are different for everyone. Some may struggle with one thing and some may struggle with another. There is no real model for eating disorders. These are just the most common.</div><div style="color: #333333; font-family: 'lucida grande', tahoma, verdana, arial, sans-serif; font-size: 11px; line-height: 1.5em; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; text-align: left;"><br />
</div><div style="color: #333333; font-family: 'lucida grande', tahoma, verdana, arial, sans-serif; font-size: 11px; line-height: 1.5em; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; text-align: left;"><strong>Anorexia:</strong></div><div style="color: #333333; font-family: 'lucida grande', tahoma, verdana, arial, sans-serif; font-size: 11px; line-height: 1.5em; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; text-align: left;">Those who have anorexia nervosa restrict their intake of food and over exercise. Those who have anorexia nervosa don’t eat enough food to fuel their bodies resulting in them losing weight dramatically. These patients are many times hospitalized once they reach down to 90-100 pounds. However, there are many who fall to 80, even 70 pounds. These patients have to be tube fed and restricted to bed rest for several months. <strong>These are the side effects that anorexics experience:</strong></div><div style="color: #333333; font-family: 'lucida grande', tahoma, verdana, arial, sans-serif; font-size: 11px; line-height: 1.5em; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; text-align: left;">Fatigue and loss of energy</div><div style="color: #333333; font-family: 'lucida grande', tahoma, verdana, arial, sans-serif; font-size: 11px; line-height: 1.5em; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; text-align: left;">Hypertension (low blood pressure)</div><div style="color: #333333; font-family: 'lucida grande', tahoma, verdana, arial, sans-serif; font-size: 11px; line-height: 1.5em; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; text-align: left;">Dizziness due to low blood pressure</div><div style="color: #333333; font-family: 'lucida grande', tahoma, verdana, arial, sans-serif; font-size: 11px; line-height: 1.5em; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; text-align: left;">Fine hair growth on body (lanugo hair)</div><div style="color: #333333; font-family: 'lucida grande', tahoma, verdana, arial, sans-serif; font-size: 11px; line-height: 1.5em; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; text-align: left;">Hair loss</div><div style="color: #333333; font-family: 'lucida grande', tahoma, verdana, arial, sans-serif; font-size: 11px; line-height: 1.5em; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; text-align: left;">Pins and needles (parathesia due to changes in the peripheral changes in the nervous system)</div><div style="color: #333333; font-family: 'lucida grande', tahoma, verdana, arial, sans-serif; font-size: 11px; line-height: 1.5em; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; text-align: left;">Brittle nails and fragile bones due to low calcium</div><div style="color: #333333; font-family: 'lucida grande', tahoma, verdana, arial, sans-serif; font-size: 11px; line-height: 1.5em; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; text-align: left;">Increased vulnerability to osteoporosis</div><div style="color: #333333; font-family: 'lucida grande', tahoma, verdana, arial, sans-serif; font-size: 11px; line-height: 1.5em; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; text-align: left;">Anaemia and pale skin due to low iron levels</div><div style="color: #333333; font-family: 'lucida grande', tahoma, verdana, arial, sans-serif; font-size: 11px; line-height: 1.5em; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; text-align: left;">Easy bruising</div><div style="color: #333333; font-family: 'lucida grande', tahoma, verdana, arial, sans-serif; font-size: 11px; line-height: 1.5em; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; text-align: left;">Cramps</div><div style="color: #333333; font-family: 'lucida grande', tahoma, verdana, arial, sans-serif; font-size: 11px; line-height: 1.5em; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; text-align: left;">Ulcers</div><div style="color: #333333; font-family: 'lucida grande', tahoma, verdana, arial, sans-serif; font-size: 11px; line-height: 1.5em; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; text-align: left;">Susceptibility to cold due to loss of insulation</div><div style="color: #333333; font-family: 'lucida grande', tahoma, verdana, arial, sans-serif; font-size: 11px; line-height: 1.5em; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; text-align: left;">Edema (tissue swelling from water) due to electrolyte imbalances</div><div style="color: #333333; font-family: 'lucida grande', tahoma, verdana, arial, sans-serif; font-size: 11px; line-height: 1.5em; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; text-align: left;">Cessation of menstruation</div><div style="color: #333333; font-family: 'lucida grande', tahoma, verdana, arial, sans-serif; font-size: 11px; line-height: 1.5em; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; text-align: left;">Strain on most of the bodies organs</div><div style="color: #333333; font-family: 'lucida grande', tahoma, verdana, arial, sans-serif; font-size: 11px; line-height: 1.5em; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; text-align: left;">Thyroid dysfunction</div><div style="color: #333333; font-family: 'lucida grande', tahoma, verdana, arial, sans-serif; font-size: 11px; line-height: 1.5em; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; text-align: left;">Irregularity in the secretion of growth hormone</div><div style="color: #333333; font-family: 'lucida grande', tahoma, verdana, arial, sans-serif; font-size: 11px; line-height: 1.5em; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; text-align: left;">Potential kidney failure</div><div style="color: #333333; font-family: 'lucida grande', tahoma, verdana, arial, sans-serif; font-size: 11px; line-height: 1.5em; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; text-align: left;">Urinary tract infections</div><div style="color: #333333; font-family: 'lucida grande', tahoma, verdana, arial, sans-serif; font-size: 11px; line-height: 1.5em; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; text-align: left;">Chronic indigestion</div><div style="color: #333333; font-family: 'lucida grande', tahoma, verdana, arial, sans-serif; font-size: 11px; line-height: 1.5em; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; text-align: left;">Potential liver failure</div><div style="color: #333333; font-family: 'lucida grande', tahoma, verdana, arial, sans-serif; font-size: 11px; line-height: 1.5em; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; text-align: left;">Osteoporosis</div><div style="color: #333333; font-family: 'lucida grande', tahoma, verdana, arial, sans-serif; font-size: 11px; line-height: 1.5em; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; text-align: left;"><br />
</div><div style="color: #333333; font-family: 'lucida grande', tahoma, verdana, arial, sans-serif; font-size: 11px; line-height: 1.5em; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; text-align: left;"><strong>Bulimia:</strong></div><div style="color: #333333; font-family: 'lucida grande', tahoma, verdana, arial, sans-serif; font-size: 11px; line-height: 1.5em; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; text-align: left;">Bulimia patients induce weight loss by vomiting the food they have eaten. Many will binge and then purge the food that they eat. There is also exercise bulimia which is rapidly increasing. Those with exercise bulimia may eat a normal amount of food but then proceed to exercise for a very long amount of time. And when I mean a long amount of time, I mean they exercise most of the day. <strong>The symptoms for bulimia include:</strong></div><div style="color: #333333; font-family: 'lucida grande', tahoma, verdana, arial, sans-serif; font-size: 11px; line-height: 1.5em; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; text-align: left;">Low potassium (loss of electrolytes)</div><div style="color: #333333; font-family: 'lucida grande', tahoma, verdana, arial, sans-serif; font-size: 11px; line-height: 1.5em; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; text-align: left;">Kidney damage</div><div style="color: #333333; font-family: 'lucida grande', tahoma, verdana, arial, sans-serif; font-size: 11px; line-height: 1.5em; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; text-align: left;">Heart irregularities and possible cardiac arrest</div><div style="color: #333333; font-family: 'lucida grande', tahoma, verdana, arial, sans-serif; font-size: 11px; line-height: 1.5em; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; text-align: left;">Increased cavities in teeth due to loss of tooth enamel</div><div style="color: #333333; font-family: 'lucida grande', tahoma, verdana, arial, sans-serif; font-size: 11px; line-height: 1.5em; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; text-align: left;">Hoarseness of voice</div><div style="color: #333333; font-family: 'lucida grande', tahoma, verdana, arial, sans-serif; font-size: 11px; line-height: 1.5em; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; text-align: left;">Dehydration</div><div style="color: #333333; font-family: 'lucida grande', tahoma, verdana, arial, sans-serif; font-size: 11px; line-height: 1.5em; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; text-align: left;">Swollen glands</div><div style="color: #333333; font-family: 'lucida grande', tahoma, verdana, arial, sans-serif; font-size: 11px; line-height: 1.5em; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; text-align: left;">Erosion of the enamel of back teeth (from vomiting)</div><div style="color: #333333; font-family: 'lucida grande', tahoma, verdana, arial, sans-serif; font-size: 11px; line-height: 1.5em; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; text-align: left;">Broken blood vessels in the face</div><div style="color: #333333; font-family: 'lucida grande', tahoma, verdana, arial, sans-serif; font-size: 11px; line-height: 1.5em; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; text-align: left;">Constant sore throat</div><div style="color: #333333; font-family: 'lucida grande', tahoma, verdana, arial, sans-serif; font-size: 11px; line-height: 1.5em; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; text-align: left;">Erosion of the esophagus</div><div style="color: #333333; font-family: 'lucida grande', tahoma, verdana, arial, sans-serif; font-size: 11px; line-height: 1.5em; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; text-align: left;">Hiatal hernis</div><div style="color: #333333; font-family: 'lucida grande', tahoma, verdana, arial, sans-serif; font-size: 11px; line-height: 1.5em; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; text-align: left;"><br />
</div><div style="color: #333333; font-family: 'lucida grande', tahoma, verdana, arial, sans-serif; font-size: 11px; line-height: 1.5em; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; text-align: left;"><strong>Binging:</strong></div><div style="color: #333333; font-family: 'lucida grande', tahoma, verdana, arial, sans-serif; font-size: 11px; line-height: 1.5em; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; text-align: left;">Those who have binge eating disorder eat large amounts of food in order to cope with emotional distress. <strong>Symptoms include</strong>:</div><div style="color: #333333; font-family: 'lucida grande', tahoma, verdana, arial, sans-serif; font-size: 11px; line-height: 1.5em; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; text-align: left;">Obesity</div><div style="color: #333333; font-family: 'lucida grande', tahoma, verdana, arial, sans-serif; font-size: 11px; line-height: 1.5em; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; text-align: left;">Type 2 diabetes</div><div style="color: #333333; font-family: 'lucida grande', tahoma, verdana, arial, sans-serif; font-size: 11px; line-height: 1.5em; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; text-align: left;">Gallbladder disease</div><div style="color: #333333; font-family: 'lucida grande', tahoma, verdana, arial, sans-serif; font-size: 11px; line-height: 1.5em; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; text-align: left;">High cholesterol</div><div style="color: #333333; font-family: 'lucida grande', tahoma, verdana, arial, sans-serif; font-size: 11px; line-height: 1.5em; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; text-align: left;">High blood pressure</div><div style="color: #333333; font-family: 'lucida grande', tahoma, verdana, arial, sans-serif; font-size: 11px; line-height: 1.5em; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; text-align: left;">Heart disease </div><div style="color: #333333; font-family: 'lucida grande', tahoma, verdana, arial, sans-serif; font-size: 11px; line-height: 1.5em; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; text-align: left;">Certain types of cancer</div><div style="color: #333333; font-family: 'lucida grande', tahoma, verdana, arial, sans-serif; font-size: 11px; line-height: 1.5em; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; text-align: left;">Osteoarthritis</div><div style="color: #333333; font-family: 'lucida grande', tahoma, verdana, arial, sans-serif; font-size: 11px; line-height: 1.5em; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; text-align: left;">Joint and muscle pain</div><div style="color: #333333; font-family: 'lucida grande', tahoma, verdana, arial, sans-serif; font-size: 11px; line-height: 1.5em; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; text-align: left;">Gastrointestinal problems</div><div style="color: #333333; font-family: 'lucida grande', tahoma, verdana, arial, sans-serif; font-size: 11px; line-height: 1.5em; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; text-align: left;">Sleep apnea</div><div style="color: #333333; font-family: 'lucida grande', tahoma, verdana, arial, sans-serif; font-size: 11px; line-height: 1.5em; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; text-align: left;"><br />
</div><div style="color: #333333; font-family: 'lucida grande', tahoma, verdana, arial, sans-serif; font-size: 11px; line-height: 1.5em; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; text-align: left;"><span><strong>Mental Symptoms:</strong></span></div><div style="color: #333333; font-family: 'lucida grande', tahoma, verdana, arial, sans-serif; font-size: 11px; line-height: 1.5em; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; text-align: left;">Among all of these symptoms, most of those with eating disorders will tell you <strong>the worst part</strong> is the mental pain they experience. Eating disordered individuals in most cases are:</div><div style="color: #333333; font-family: 'lucida grande', tahoma, verdana, arial, sans-serif; font-size: 11px; line-height: 1.5em; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; text-align: left;">Suicidal</div><div style="color: #333333; font-family: 'lucida grande', tahoma, verdana, arial, sans-serif; font-size: 11px; line-height: 1.5em; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; text-align: left;">Extremely Depressed</div><div style="color: #333333; font-family: 'lucida grande', tahoma, verdana, arial, sans-serif; font-size: 11px; line-height: 1.5em; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; text-align: left;">Enormously self conscious to the point that they literally hate themselves and think that everyone else hates them too.</div><div style="color: #333333; font-family: 'lucida grande', tahoma, verdana, arial, sans-serif; font-size: 11px; line-height: 1.5em; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; text-align: left;">In a constant state of thinking about food, exercise, and dieting.</div><div style="color: #333333; font-family: 'lucida grande', tahoma, verdana, arial, sans-serif; font-size: 11px; line-height: 1.5em; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; text-align: left;">Obsessed with weighing themselves (many weigh themselves at any chance they can get).</div><div style="color: #333333; font-family: 'lucida grande', tahoma, verdana, arial, sans-serif; font-size: 11px; line-height: 1.5em; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; text-align: left;">Unable to eat food made by someone else or eat food in front of someone else.</div><div style="color: #333333; font-family: 'lucida grande', tahoma, verdana, arial, sans-serif; font-size: 11px; line-height: 1.5em; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; text-align: left;">The scary part about eating disorders is that when an individual is so low in their weight, a chemical called edema kicks in and causes them to become swollen and puffy. For a person with an eating disorder, this causes them to see themselves as larger than they are.</div><div style="color: #333333; font-family: 'lucida grande', tahoma, verdana, arial, sans-serif; font-size: 11px; line-height: 1.5em; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; text-align: left;"><br />
</div><div style="color: #333333; font-family: 'lucida grande', tahoma, verdana, arial, sans-serif; font-size: 11px; line-height: 1.5em; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; text-align: left;"><span><strong>What are the causes of eating disorders?</strong></span></div><div style="color: #333333; font-family: 'lucida grande', tahoma, verdana, arial, sans-serif; font-size: 11px; line-height: 1.5em; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; text-align: left;">There is not one specific cause of eating disorders. The key factor is that eating disorders are<strong>MENTAL ILNESSES</strong>. They are caused by depression, abuse, loneliness, family issues, friend issues, bullying, and so much more. They are even learning that their may be a certain brain make up that may make someone more likely to have an eating disorder. Those with eating disorders are trying to find <strong>SOME WAY</strong> to be acceptable, loved, and worthy. <strong>The media is probably one of the largest factors.</strong> The media equates beauty with happiness. Those who are searching for happiness see being skinny as their only way to get out of a situation or to be loved.</div><div style="color: #333333; font-family: 'lucida grande', tahoma, verdana, arial, sans-serif; font-size: 11px; line-height: 1.5em; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; text-align: left;"></div><div class="photo photo_center" style="clear: both; color: #333333; font-family: 'lucida grande', tahoma, verdana, arial, sans-serif; font-size: 11px; line-height: 16px; padding-bottom: 10px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; text-align: center;"><div class="photo_img" style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: auto; margin-right: auto; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; text-align: center; width: 180px;"><img class="img" src="http://photos-g.ak.fbcdn.net/hphotos-ak-snc6/183217_10150094157531227_707896226_6864612_4623658_a.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px;" /></div></div><div style="color: #333333; font-family: 'lucida grande', tahoma, verdana, arial, sans-serif; font-size: 11px; line-height: 1.5em; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; text-align: left;"></div><div style="color: #333333; font-family: 'lucida grande', tahoma, verdana, arial, sans-serif; font-size: 11px; line-height: 1.5em; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; text-align: left;">The average female is 5’4” and 140 pounds. The average model is 5’11” and 117 pounds. Yet we admire and look at models as “thin, fit, happy, and beautiful”. This unhealthy media portrayal of women affects young girls and boys. Between the ages of 11 and 13, fifty percent of girls think they are overweight. Eighty percent of 13 year old children have tried to lose weight.</div><div style="color: #333333; font-family: 'lucida grande', tahoma, verdana, arial, sans-serif; font-size: 11px; line-height: 1.5em; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; text-align: left;"><br />
</div><div style="color: #333333; font-family: 'lucida grande', tahoma, verdana, arial, sans-serif; font-size: 11px; line-height: 1.5em; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; text-align: left;">Something needs to be done.</div><div style="color: #333333; font-family: 'lucida grande', tahoma, verdana, arial, sans-serif; font-size: 11px; line-height: 1.5em; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; text-align: left;"><br />
</div><div style="color: #333333; font-family: 'lucida grande', tahoma, verdana, arial, sans-serif; font-size: 11px; line-height: 1.5em; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; text-align: left;"><strong>What can you do?</strong></div><div style="color: #333333; font-family: 'lucida grande', tahoma, verdana, arial, sans-serif; font-size: 11px; line-height: 1.5em; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; text-align: left;"><strong>Learn more about it.</strong> The information I got was from an organization called NEDA. Here is their website which is full of information, help, and encouragement:<a href="http://www.nationaleatingdisorders.org/" rel="nofollow" style="color: #3b5998; cursor: pointer; text-decoration: none;" target="_blank">http://www.nationaleatingdisorders.org/</a>. Please watch this video if you have a moment:<a href="http://vimeo.com/2567743" rel="nofollow" style="color: #3b5998; cursor: pointer; text-decoration: none;" target="_blank">http://vimeo.com/2567743</a>. </div><div style="color: #333333; font-family: 'lucida grande', tahoma, verdana, arial, sans-serif; font-size: 11px; line-height: 1.5em; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; text-align: left;"></div><div class="photo photo_center" style="clear: both; color: #333333; font-family: 'lucida grande', tahoma, verdana, arial, sans-serif; font-size: 11px; line-height: 16px; padding-bottom: 10px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; text-align: center;"><div class="photo_img" style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: auto; margin-right: auto; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; text-align: center; width: 180px;"><img class="img" src="http://photos-h.ak.fbcdn.net/hphotos-ak-snc6/183540_10150094126451227_707896226_6864455_1813295_a.jpg" style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px;" /></div></div><div style="color: #333333; font-family: 'lucida grande', tahoma, verdana, arial, sans-serif; font-size: 11px; line-height: 1.5em; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; text-align: left;"></div><div style="color: #333333; font-family: 'lucida grande', tahoma, verdana, arial, sans-serif; font-size: 11px; line-height: 1.5em; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; text-align: left;"><strong>Talk about it.</strong> Warn your friends and family about eating disorders and help others to see the dangers of starving and purging your way to thinness and eating in order to cope with life’s challenges. This is a great program that NEDA started: <a href="http://operationbeautiful.com/" rel="nofollow" style="color: #3b5998; cursor: pointer; text-decoration: none;" target="_blank">http://operationbeautiful.com/</a></div><div style="color: #333333; font-family: 'lucida grande', tahoma, verdana, arial, sans-serif; font-size: 11px; line-height: 1.5em; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; text-align: left;"><strong>Watch what you say.</strong> Do you find yourself talking about food in a negative manner? Do you talk about how others are “lazy, unhealthy, large (or even fat)” in front of others? Keep these thoughts to yourself. Who is it helping by breaking down yourself by telling others how you “shouldn’t have eaten this, or should have worked out harder, etc.”? Food is not bad. It is food. Nourishment for our bodies. Please don’t talk about food as though it is harmful. This is not only to help those who have eating disorders. Obesity is a growing concern in our world. However, even talking negatively about food and exercise is hurting the obese and making them feel inadequate and never able to achieve health.</div><div style="color: #333333; font-family: 'lucida grande', tahoma, verdana, arial, sans-serif; font-size: 11px; line-height: 1.5em; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; text-align: left;"><strong>Tell someone.</strong> If you know someone who has symptoms or who you suspect might have an eating disorder, tell someone. First, try talking to the person. Most likely, they will not see their problem and not believe you. So go and talk to their parents or go and get a group of friends to talk to them.</div><div style="color: #333333; font-family: 'lucida grande', tahoma, verdana, arial, sans-serif; font-size: 11px; line-height: 1.5em; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; text-align: left;">This topic is something that is extremely personal to me. I am on a journey to find a life where food is seen as nourishment and exercise is not something that I have to do every day in order to be healthy. It is my goal to help the world realize that being beautiful and thin is not what brings happiness. There is a Higher Power at work that will wipe away all the pain, sorrows, and tears that hurt brings.</div><div style="color: #333333; font-family: 'lucida grande', tahoma, verdana, arial, sans-serif; font-size: 11px; line-height: 1.5em; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; text-align: left;">Anyone who knows me knows that I love exercise and eating healthfully. Therefore, I am not saying that we should all start eating Twinkies and fried chicken. Health can be achieved by eating a balanced diet of fruits, vegetables, grains, protein, and “healthy” fats. Exercise in the form of running for 30 minutes a day, strengthening your muscles by lifting weights, riding your bike, or playing a sport can help people mentally and physically. Everything just needs to be in moderation. The world needs to find that happy balance.</div><div style="color: #333333; font-family: 'lucida grande', tahoma, verdana, arial, sans-serif; font-size: 11px; line-height: 1.5em; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; text-align: left;"><br />
</div><div style="color: #333333; font-family: 'lucida grande', tahoma, verdana, arial, sans-serif; font-size: 11px; line-height: 1.5em; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; text-align: left;">NEDA’s mission statement is: “NEDA envisions a world without eating disorders.”</div><div style="color: #333333; font-family: 'lucida grande', tahoma, verdana, arial, sans-serif; font-size: 11px; line-height: 1.5em; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; text-align: left;"><br />
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</strong></div>Unknownnoreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2359436161362393268.post-73375348395260652432011-02-18T14:13:00.000-08:002011-02-18T14:13:58.543-08:00Fennel Orange Cranberry Sauce.....and musings on life.Hello bloggies! Hope you all had a wonderful National Almonds Day! I had a kinda crappy one to be honest. I ate my oatmeal that morning that consisted of almonds, 1/2 banana, peanut butter, agave, oats of course, and butter. Whew. <b><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: x-large;">the butter about gave me a heart attack.</span></b> I am terrified of butter. <b><u>Probably one of my <s>favorite</s> biggest fear foods</u></b>. My counselor/nutritionist told me that I am still not eating enough fats. She said either eat 4 tablespoons of peanut butter or put in a tsp. of butter. <u>So I put the butter. </u>It took me about 1/2 of an hour to eat it. So hard. But I got through it. Lunch was misery. I was feeling SO guilty about the butter in my oatmeal that eating lunch was like pulling teeth. <b><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: large;">I was on the brink of tears</span></b> when a classmate came up and sat next to me. Can't start cryin' to a 50 year old woman from your statistics class about having to eat a salad, garlic bread, and spaghetti.<br />
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Anyways...it was a hard day. <b>But the next day was better.</b> Today I put on some old pants that for the last 6 months have been HUGE on me. Now they fit just right. I know I should be happy and rejoicing but I just don't feel like it. <span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: x-large;">Gaining weight is hard people.</span> Harder than most people think.<b><u> I feel like being a couch potato and eating as much as I can is my jo</u></b>b. I can't wait till I am at a healthy weight again and just stay their. It will come soon. I just wish it would come sooner. Enough of Debbie Downer.....lets move on to that recipe I promised a while ago:<br />
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<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: x-large;"><b>Fennel Orange Cranberry Sauce by David Lieberman -6 to 8 servings</b></span><br />
8 oz of frozen or fresh cranberries (whole)<br />
1/2 naval orange, zested<br />
1 whole naval orange, juiced<br />
1/4 cup of agave nectar or 1/2 cup of sugar<br />
1/2 teaspoon fennel seeds<br />
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</tbody></table>Directions: combine ingredients in saucepan over medium heat. Bring to a simmer, reduce heat to low and cook, stirring frequently, until cranberries begin to break down and water evaporates, about 8-10 minutes. Remove from heat and allow to cool.<br />
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I am telling you. <span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: x-large;"><b>EVERY</b></span> person who has eaten this has <s>hated i</s>t said it is the best cranberry sauce ever! It is so simple too! Put it on turkey, chicken, in rice, on your oatmeal, on a sandwich, on anything and it will make it delicious! You have to try it!<br />
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I read a really helpful short article from a magazine we get. It is called "Coming out and going in!" and it is taken from UCB's Word for Today. It goes like this:<br />
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"Before God's people could get out of Egypt, Pharaoh made them three different offers. To each Moses said, "no". If he had not they'd never have got out! First, Pharaoh said, "go, only leave your children here." Next, he said, "go only leave your business here." Finally, he said, "go, only don't go too far". Listen to what Moses told him, "there shall not an hoof be left behind", Exodus 10.26. <b><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: x-large;">That's what you've got to do too- look the enemy in the eye and say, "No! I'm taking my family, I'm taking my business, and I'm going all the way with God!"</span></b> That's what it takes to get out of Egypt!<br />
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But then there is the question of getting into the Promised Land? <span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: large;"><b>That happens only...one city at a time... one habit at a time.... one attitude at a time and one step of faith at a time. </b></span><br />
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<b>Never speak words that make the enemy think he's still in control- he's not! The bible says you have the authority to drive him out - and He's got to go</b>, Luke 10:17. If you allow him even an inch, he'll turn it into a stronghold, Ephesians 4:27.<br />
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Rise up in faith today and announce, "I'm coming out and I'm going in!"<br />
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A couple eats from the last couple weeks:<br />
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<tr><td class="tr-caption" style="text-align: center;"> I don't like Jif PB but it was almost empty so I snatched it up and ate my oatmeal out of it!</td></tr>
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Be sure to eat lots of almonds today in celebration! Almonds have tons and tons of nutrients! Check out this website to learn more about how almonds can prevent cancer, osteoporosis, heart disease and much more: <a href="http://www.nutsforalmonds.com/nutrition.htm">http://www.nutsforalmonds.com/nutrition.htm</a>!<br />
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QUESTIONS:<br />
<b>What is your favorite nut?</b><br />
Mine is almonds...duh! hahah! I also LOVE walnuts, brazillian nuts (try right now...so good and unique), cashews, peanuts, pretty much all of them except pecans!<br />
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<b>How are you going to celebrate National Almond Day?</b><br />
MMmmmm.....I am going to eat almonds in my oats, on my salad, in my yogurt, as a snack....etc!Unknownnoreply@blogger.com4tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2359436161362393268.post-81454918381285663282011-02-12T10:18:00.000-08:002011-02-12T10:18:19.834-08:00New Year's Resolutions....a month late! :P Part One.Good Morning Bloggy World!<br />
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I hope everyone is doing just grand today!<b> I certainly am.</b> Last night I <u>did not </u>feel this way. In fact I kind of came to a <b>breaking point.</b><br />
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</tbody></table>I seriously was at one of the closest moments I have been to wanting to give up. I looked in the mirror and saw what I thought was a fat pig who was hideous inside and out. Yesterday I didn't eat much. <u>And I did it consciously</u>. Part of it was that I have a cold so my appetite was not huge but I also restricted. I was home alone and while I was doing some body checking and pinching and squeezing of my "fat" (aka.....skin and necessary fat to live) I told myself that I hated myself and was fat and ugly and that NOBODY liked me.I<b> yelled that I wanted to die</b>. I was saying it to God. I used to <u>beg and plead to God that I would die</u>. I haven't done this in a long time. I am <b><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: x-large;">sad</span></b> that I would do something like that again. I ran through my head all of the rejections from friends and others and <span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: x-large;">equated my appearance with the rejection</span>. I told myself, "No wonder I have no friends. I am hideous and annoying and ugly and horrible." You see...since I have no <b>CLOSE CLOSE BFFs</b> right now....I think that I have <b><u>NO friends.</u></b>...which is completely untrue. I have plenty of friends at school and ones from high school that I still am friends with. But since I don't see them often and I don't make an effort to be social<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: x-large;"> I figure that no one likes me</span>. Silly. And you know what made me feel the most ugly? <b>My attitude</b>. I feel SO guilty to God for hating myself so much. <span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: x-large;"><b>I still do. </b></span>But this morning I awakened refreshed and invigorated to make a change.<br />
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One thing that is helping me is this book:<br />
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</tbody></table>Great book. You should go get it. It makes me feel normal and not alone. At the beginning of each chapter there is a quote. The one for the Chapter called , "Do it for You," says, <div><blockquote>"The person who seeks all their applause from outside <u>has their happiness in another's keeping</u>." </blockquote><div>Read that several times to really let it sink in. Its very profound, true, and enlightening. I need to make myself happy for me and God. <b>NO ONE ELSE.</b> I will never ever ever ever please<b><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: x-large;"> <u>EVERYONE. NEVER</u></span></b><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: x-large;">. </span>And that's okay! The only people I need to please is the Lord and myself. (aside from obeying parents and of course I am not going to go around hurting people to please myself.... you get the idea)<div><br />
</div><div>So this is my new and ultimate New Year's Resolution (a month late)!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! <b><u><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: large;">I am going to STOP....STOP....STOP pleasing others. RIGHT NOW. This is it. NO MORE.</span></u></b></div><div><br />
</div><div>I also came up with a list of </div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: x-large;"><b>Goals For 2011</b></span>:</div><div>1 Weight XXX (healthy weight) and maintain.</div><div>2 After weighing XXX pounds stop weighing myself.</div><div>3 Read Bible everyday BEFORE homework, exercising, and computer time.(I usually end up at the end of the day reading for about 1 minute before bed because I put it off all day.)</div><div>4 Pray at least 5x's a day.( I probably pray once or twice a day. I don't even give thanks for food anymore. Not good.) </div><div>5 Find 5 positive things each day about myself and repeat them out loud (suggestion from book).</div><div>6 Don't body check.</div><div>7 Don't not wear something because it shows curves..</div><div>8 Take 2 rest days from exercise a week.</div><div>9 Do only 2 days of cardio a week.</div><div>10 Study for only 5 hours a day. Stop after five hours (I study WAY TOO MUCH!)</div><div>11 <b>Every time I feel ugly, fat, etc.......pray. (This one is going to help a lot...I know it.) </b></div><div><br />
</div><div>So these are my goals that are things that I need to change about myself. I have another list of more fun goals! I will post those next.(Please don't compare yourself to these goals. Everybody has different goals/standards. These are just mine.)</div><div><br />
</div><div>Now because I am pretty much a <s>go with the flow kind of person</s> <b>PERFECTIONIST,</b> I would normally follow these goal religiously and beat myself up if I don't do something for just one day. I am not going to do that. These are things I want to strive for. As long as I make some effort......I am accomplishing something. A quote from the book above helped me to realize this. Micheal Addison Read said, </div><blockquote>"Since every <b>failure is a lesson</b>, every <b>challenge an opportunityy</b>, and every <b>joy a triumph,</b> it's <span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: x-large;"><b><u>hard to go wrong</u></b></span>."</blockquote><div><div><br />
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As far as recovery goes....it is going well. Almost too well for my taste. I have gained 3 pounds in 2 weeks. SCARY AS HECK! I have re-introduced full fat yogurt, full fat cheese, and butter into my diet. And man...it kind of packs on the pounds...in a good way. I am really proud of myself for gaining steadily.<br />
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The scariest thing right now is the way I look. In two weeks I feel like I am huge. I know it is unrealistic because 3 pounds is not a HUGE amount of weight. But others and myself have been noticing. My sister and mom have been really encouraging to me by saying that my butt is getting bigger and that I have bigger arms......but I can't see the positive. I was honestly hoping that even if I gained weight....I wouldn't change sizes/shape if I kept on working out and stuff. Irrational I know, but I almost believed that it would be true. Well its not. And I guess this is my next step in recovery. I have to learn to accept my body.<br />
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Right now I am eating a delicious salad consisting of arugala (LOVE), nappa cabbage, broccoli, cauliflower, vidalia onions, cilantro, almonds, feta, ranch, and yellow mustard. Before that I had a bowl of stew and half a slice of bread. Oh yeah....I have started eating bread again...with butter on it! Hardest thing. But I am doing it.<br />
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Last Friday I ate at an Ethiopian restaurant. Ummm. Let me say that it was very ..... different. Not a huge fan. Here is a picture of the restaurant :<br />
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</tbody></table>The food was about the strangest ever: <img alt="doro wott" src="http://www.aradarestaurant.com/images/dorowott.jpg" /><br />
Everyone in your group basically just tears off pieces of the bread stuff called injera (NASTY!) and scoop up the meat and veggies with it.<br />
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The meal was redeemed by going to get fro-yo!!!!!!! YUM! We got <a href="http://www.pinkberry.com/">Pinkberry Fro-Yo</a>! I got chocolate fro-yo with hazelnut butter (DIVINE), pumpkin granola, and half of a wafer cookie on the top. (gotta bring those calories up!<br />
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DEBBIE DOWNER: Ugh....I am now eating an orange that is far from tasty...so disappointing seeing as how the oranges lately have been INCREDIBLE! Seriously...go buy oranges right now!<br />
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I WANT TO HEAR ABOUT YOU NOW!<br />
Do you put yellow mustard on your salads? DO IT! Learned it from this lovely<br />
lady:<a href="http://www.ktbwood.wordpress.com/">www.ktbwood.wordpress.com</a><br />
Is it hard to hear other people say that you have gained weight (as a compliment)?<br />
Have you ever eaten Ethiopian food?Unknownnoreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2359436161362393268.post-82998437370771527332011-01-29T11:58:00.001-08:002011-01-29T12:03:12.430-08:00Battlefield<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Georgia, 'Times New Roman', serif;">So I meant to post this on Tuesday...oops! </span><br />
<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Georgia, 'Times New Roman', serif;">Long time no write, huh. <b>Well this week has been interesting so far.</b> I am still striving forward and trying to do my best at being spontaneous and adventurous with my foods. However, even though I felt like I was on cloud nine last Friday, reality or rather ed has come back to me. Its so discouraging. I am happy, feel beautiful, and am content with how I look and then the next day I feel ugly, unhappy, and discontent. I know that I am slowly but surely getting better though. I have made a lot of progress.</span><br />
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<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Georgia, 'Times New Roman', serif;">Today I met with Mary Ellen. <span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: large;">It was a good but really hard time</span>. Since I have started going to her (its been something like 3 or 4 months), I have only gained 5 pounds. <b>That is not so great. </b>She told me that I really need to try to pick up the pace and try to really gain weight. <span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: large;"><b>This is so scary. </b></span>I have that terrible fear that once I reach my healthy weight again, that I will lose control and start eating everything in my path and start sitting around all day. I have this irrational fear that I will spin out of control and end up miserable. <b><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: x-large;">This is crazy though because I LOVE healthy food and I LOVE exercising.</span></b> Why do I have this fear that all of a sudden my personality will change and I will be an old miser. I explained this to her and she was very understanding. I think I have this fear because when I was at a healthy weight, I was terribly unhappy. I felt alone, ugly, lazy, I ate horribly....all that jazz. But I am different now. I have to start believing in myself and my capability to not become a couch potato. </span><br />
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<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Georgia, 'Times New Roman', serif;">Another thing that is bothering me is someone in my family. I have been so close to my this person all this year and she has helped me so much. However, <b>lately she has been saying things that make recovering from ED really hard. </b>Today she told me that she thinks that I shouldn't gain as much weight as Mary Ellen suggests for me. She said that would be kind of ,<b>"heavy." </b>I was surprised at her telling me this. She then went on to question why I stopped doing cardio and acted like it was silly for me to stop and that I should continue to do so because having cardiovascular health is important. I wanted to say "<b><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: x-large;">Duh. I know that</span></b>!" However, I just nodded and told her that I really can't do cardio right now due to my mental health. I would be doing it for the wrong reasons and it would make recovery much harder. She acted confused and kind of just shrugged it off. I don't understand it. It is so frustrating to have the people surrounding you not know the mental processes of those with ed. </span><br />
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<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Georgia, 'Times New Roman', serif;">A sister used to always talk about weight, looks, nutrition and all that stuff. It was her main topic of conversation. I asked her to stop talking about it. She did for a while and then she went back to doing it. So I asked her again and she stopped. This last weekend however, she was going through old pictures of herself and saying how big her arms were and how bad she looked. I hate how she always criticizes my other sister too for her weight. She used to always talk about how my other sister and I were the large ones and how she was the fit one. Now that I have anorexia, she doesn't talk about me. But she still breaks down my other sister in this way. Why? Why does she do this? Its terrible. <b>The thing is I used to follow along with it and agree with her. I am so glad that I know see the detrimental effects of this kind of conversation. </b>Anyways, all of these things have been bothering me and have made it really hard for me to recover.</span><br />
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<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Georgia, 'Times New Roman', serif;">So this is a major Debbie Downer post but I just needed to tell someone I feel like I am in the midst of a<b><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: x-large;"> battlefield right now</span></b> and I am praying that I win! </span><br />
<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Georgia, 'Times New Roman', serif;">On Sunday, the sermon was amazing. <b>Spoke right to my heart.</b> It was about Psalm 23...you know "He leadeth me beside still waters...He restoreth <span style="color: maroon;">I anointed you . . . I delivered you . . . I gave you . . . and gave you the house of Israel and Judah . . . I also would have given you much more.</span>" The Lord has given me numerous opportunities to turn from my sin and enjoy the Lord and honor Him with my life. But I and Satan has chosen sin for my life. This can be changed though. <b><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: x-large;">WE HAVE HOPE!!</span></b> "<span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: maroon;">So David said to Nathan, "I have sinned against the LORD.</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: maroon;">And Nathan said to David, "<b>The</b></span><b><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: maroon;"> </span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: maroon;"><span style="text-transform: uppercase;">LORD</span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: maroon;"> </span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: maroon;">also has put away your sin; you shall not die.</span></b><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: maroon;"> " The Lord showed <span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: x-large;">grace</span> to David. David murdered a man. In today's world he would have probably received the death penalty. The Lord is full of grace though and forgives us our sin. I just have to recognize my sin and turn from it. This is so much easier said than done. But David went on to be an <b>AMAZING </b>king and was also in the lineage of Jesus. The Lord honors those who follow Him and turn from their sin. </span></span><br />
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Its like I have been cured. Seriously. You don't even know what I ate yesterday! I feel like a champion! I started out with my regular oats and and egg......<b><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: x-large;">THEN.</span></b>....I ate pizza and salad at this fun resteraunt called Pizza Republica! And then I ate fried....yes fried.....italian egg rolls, buffalo sliders, fondu, apple pie, and bread pudding at a fun little resteraunt downtown! Fun times! I'll give you a rundown now!<br />
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I started the day by working out, eating breakfast, and going to counseling. Counseling was really helpful and I feel really inspired after it. My counselor suggested that I start volunteering and hanging out with other Christian College groups since I am going to have more free time since I am only taking 4 classes this semester! I have been wanting to do this for a while but have been scared to. I don't know why. Its the same un-social ed thoughts I think. <span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: x-large;">But when she suggested this to me, I felt like it was from the Lord.</span> I have been really wanting to serve others in some way and get to know other Christian college kids around! I am going to look at some different options of volunteer places and stuff! I'll let you know where I get with that! (Let's hope I still feel this adventurous to go out and be around other people!)<br />
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My dad works right next to my counselor...like a mile away. So I thought that I would call him up and see if I could come and say hi real quick. I never do this. <b><u>Never. </u></b>I am not spontaneous whatsoever and I am actually kind of struggling with my relationship with my dad right now. So this was hard but when the idea popped in my head...I wasn't going to let myself say no. So I called him up. It turned out that he was at starbucks with a couple of business people. He asked if I wanted to come.....I hesitated .......but then just said yes. So I went.....and the business people were really nice and I got to hear about all this interesting stuff. I am a business major so it was fun to see real life business people in action! Afterwards......one of the ladies asked if we would like to go to lunch....<b><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: x-large;">.I wanted to say no so badly.</span></b> 1. because I have a lot of homework that I should have been doing (and should be doing right now) 2. she wanted to go to a pizza place (<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: x-large;">AHHHHHHH.....CALORIES!!!!!!!!!</span>) 3. I really don't like eating "junky" food in front of other people (call me crazy but if I am going to eat "unhealthy" food I have to do it alone.) However, I knew that this was my ed and depression kicking in so I again said <s>no</s><b><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: x-large;"><u>YES!</u></span></b> (I'm on a role!)<br />
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</tbody></table>They had a lunch special at this pizza place where you could get a 9" pizza and a salad or soup. I got the mixed green salad that had Balsamic Roasted Tomato, Pickled Pearl Onions, Shaved Parmesan Reggiano, and Balsamic Vinaigrette. <span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: x-large;">OOOOOOHhhh yum! The pickled onions and balsamic roasted tomatoes made it DELICOUS!</span> Oh and everything that they use is either locally grown or imported from Italy! AWESOME! It tasted so fresh and delicous! I even saw some cans of stewed tomatoes in their kitchen (the kitchen is visable while you eat!) and the words on the can were all in Italian. Love it! For my 9" pizza I got the Pizza Giacomo which had a red sauce, Fresh Mozzarella, Goat Cheese, Wild Mushroom, Arugula, Fried Garlic, and EVOO! YUM! <b><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: x-large;">The fried garlic was increadible</span></b>.....it was sliced SO thin and then fried to crispy perfection. When you bit into the pizza there was that unexpected crunch! Yum! It was pretty good pizza! It was neopolitan style (thin crust) which is my favorite. However it wasn't very bold flavor wise. I would have liked to have tasted more red sauce and goat cheese. It was kind of bland....except for the fried garlic (LOVE!). <b><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: x-large;">I think I actually enjoyed the salad more! haha! </span></b><br />
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</tbody></table>And guess what?!?!?!?! <b><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: x-large;">GUESS FREAKING WHAT?!?!?</span></b> I ate 3 slices. 3. yes. 3. 3. 3. 3. 3. 3. 3. 3. AHHHHH! And I ate my WHOLE salad. CRAZY! I am so proud of myself. I snapped....and ate it! I usually can't stomach 1 slice of pizza none the less 3 slices!!!! Wow! Sorry...I will stop tooting my own horn now! :D<div><br />
</div><div>And you know what....<b><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: x-large;">I was full but not THAT full....crazy I know</span></b>. Most people would be like...."Dang girl....you ate 3 slices!??!?! What's wrong with you?!?!?" But hey...I was hungry and I wanted it. And I didn't freak out about it that much....sure I was kind of IN SHOCK at what I had just let myself do....but I honestly felt like I was taking that pizza and shoving it in the face of ED! HA! TAKE THAT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! </div><div><br />
</div><div>After this I went home and worked on homework for about 2 hours. Then my sister called and asked if I wanted to go out with some friends to a place called the Union Bistro for drinks and appetizers. At first I said no. <b>I had homework to do, I didn't want to eat more "unhealthy" food since I went crazy at lunch, and I didn't want to go socialize with people.</b> Then I stopped myself. Was it really me who was saying no or was it my ed? Did I....ME....MYSELF......want to go?<s> no way</s> <b><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: x-large;">YES SIREEE I DID!!!!!!!!!! </span></b>So I said yes. I'm going crazy! ahah! So I went...and I got a virgin strawberry dakury.......and yes I drank it all.....and yes I didn't scoop off the whipped cream! <u><b>BAM</b></u>! And then I nibbled on all kinds of yummy eats that I listed above! And when I got home....I was still hungry.........I wanted to just go upstairs and go to bed without filling up my tum tum. But I said no to that and said YES to some left over sweet potato fries, green beans, and cornbread from my parents dinner. Yes I ate cornbread too! With agave! And then I happily went to bed after eating and saying <span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: x-large;">yes to everything I always say no to.</span></div><div><br />
</div><div>I feel alive. Happy. I feel like celebrating and living my life while saying "AY-OH!" ahahah! Cheezy much?!?!? But I am serious! <b><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: x-large;">I feel like a rockstar</span></b>! I feel like me for the first time in forever. It is a WONDERFUL FEELING! I only hope that the rest of you have or get this feeling! I can only say that it is by the grace of God that I am doing this well. I don't know how I am doing it...but I am! I feel in control, confidant, powerful, beautiful ( yes...I feel beautiful!!!), etc. My sister said something so true last night. She said that <b><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: x-large;">life is meant to be lived</span></b>. We spend SO much time just worrying about our life that we don't ever truely live it to the fullest. Is that how God wants us to live? He has given us food for pleasure and nourishment. He has given us exercise for pleasure and health. He has given us friends for pleasure and help. He has given us lives. Have you ever thought about that. <b>He has breathed life into you</b>. <span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: x-large;">What are YOU going to do with it?</span> Will you use your life to worry about food, image, beauty, loneliness, control, etc? Or will you use your life to have fun, please and honor God, and bless others? Even though it is hard....I am wanting and striving to do the latter. I encourage you to do the same!!!!!!!! <u><b><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: x-large;">Thank you for your prayers.</span></b></u> They are working. And I hope you know that I pray for you as well!</div><div><br />
</div><div>Do something crazy today. Say yes. <b>Shove ed into the trash can and eat for fun</b>! Check out that body of yours and thank God that you have arms, legs, a stomach, a face, and a beating heart! We are so blessed.....<b>we just can't see it.</b> <span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: x-large;">I encourage you to take the time to see those blessings and to enjoy them to the fulles</span>t!!!!!!!! <br />
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</div>Unknownnoreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2359436161362393268.post-6260870050387757702011-01-18T13:47:00.000-08:002011-01-18T13:47:51.145-08:00Pho!!!!!!!!!!!!! (pronounced fa!)Good afternoon! I guess I will just get right into it. Last night was kind of not a good night. <b>But unlike before</b>, I was able to recover. This morning I still was sad/angry but after going to my doctor's appointment...<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: x-large;">I felt much better.</span> This would not have happed a month ago. Usually I would get into these modes where I would be sad for days on end over one thing. Thankfully, with a few tears shed, a long talk with my mom, and some prayer,<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: x-large;"> I was able to turn my day around. Very pleased about this.</span><br />
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Something neat.....my doctor said that I was at one of the fastest rates she's seen of recovery. This meant a lot to me. She said,<b> which I agree with</b>, that I seem to have a great environment to get well....I have a counselor and a wonderful mother to help and support me. <span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: x-large;">She was so right.</span> I realize how much I take this for granted. Having my mom supportive of me is a huge blessing. She has helped me so much. Along with my counselor. <span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: x-large;"><b>And most importantly I have God to help me</b></span>.<br />
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<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: x-large;">Have any of you ever had Pho before??? </span>If you haven't, you should find a Pho place to eat soon. Pho is defined by wiki as, "<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: sans-serif; font-size: 13px; line-height: 19px;">a </span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: sans-serif; font-size: 13px; line-height: 19px;"><a href="http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Vietnamese_cuisine" style="background-attachment: initial; background-clip: initial; background-color: initial; background-image: none; background-origin: initial; background-position: initial initial; background-repeat: initial initial; color: #0645ad; text-decoration: none;" title="Vietnamese cuisine">Vietnamese</a></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: sans-serif; font-size: 13px; line-height: 19px;"> </span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: sans-serif; font-size: 13px; line-height: 19px;"><a href="http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Noodle_soup" style="background-attachment: initial; background-clip: initial; background-color: initial; background-image: none; background-origin: initial; background-position: initial initial; background-repeat: initial initial; color: #0645ad; text-decoration: none;" title="Noodle soup">noodle soup</a></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: sans-serif; font-size: 13px; line-height: 19px;">, usually served with beef (pho bo) or chicken (pho ga).</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: sans-serif; font-size: 13px; line-height: 19px;"><sup class="reference" id="cite_ref-town_0-0" style="font-style: normal; font-weight: normal; line-height: 1em;"><a href="http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Ph%E1%BB%9F#cite_note-town-0" style="background-attachment: initial; background-clip: initial; background-color: initial; background-image: none; background-origin: initial; background-position: initial initial; background-repeat: initial initial; color: #0645ad; text-decoration: none; white-space: nowrap;"><span>]</span></a></sup></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: sans-serif; font-size: 13px; line-height: 19px;"> The soup includes noodles made from </span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: sans-serif; font-size: 13px; line-height: 19px;"><a href="http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Rice" style="background-attachment: initial; background-clip: initial; background-color: initial; background-image: none; background-origin: initial; background-position: initial initial; background-repeat: initial initial; color: #0645ad; text-decoration: none;" title="Rice">rice</a></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: sans-serif; font-size: 13px; line-height: 19px;"> and is often served with, </span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: sans-serif; font-size: 13px; line-height: 19px;"><a href="http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Basil" style="background-attachment: initial; background-clip: initial; background-color: initial; background-image: none; background-origin: initial; background-position: initial initial; background-repeat: initial initial; color: #0645ad; text-decoration: none;" title="Basil">basil</a></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: sans-serif; font-size: 13px; line-height: 19px;">, </span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: sans-serif; font-size: 13px; line-height: 19px;"><a href="http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Lime_(fruit)" style="background-attachment: initial; background-clip: initial; background-color: initial; background-image: none; background-origin: initial; background-position: initial initial; background-repeat: initial initial; color: #0645ad; text-decoration: none;" title="Lime (fruit)">lime</a></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: sans-serif; font-size: 13px; line-height: 19px;">, </span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: sans-serif; font-size: 13px; line-height: 19px;"><a class="mw-redirect" href="http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Mung_bean_sprouts" style="background-attachment: initial; background-clip: initial; background-color: initial; background-image: none; background-origin: initial; background-position: initial initial; background-repeat: initial initial; color: #0645ad; text-decoration: none;" title="Mung bean sprouts">bean sprouts</a></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: sans-serif; font-size: 13px; line-height: 19px;">, and </span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: sans-serif; font-size: 13px; line-height: 19px;"><a href="http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Capsicum" style="background-attachment: initial; background-clip: initial; background-color: initial; background-image: none; background-origin: initial; background-position: initial initial; background-repeat: initial initial; color: #0645ad; text-decoration: none;" title="Capsicum">peppers</a></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: sans-serif; font-size: 13px; line-height: 19px;"> that are added to the soup by the consumer." Mmmmm it is so good. Here is a picture from wiki of the traditional Pho.</span><img src="http://upload.wikimedia.org/wikipedia/commons/thumb/0/0f/Pho_in_Saigon.jpg/260px-Pho_in_Saigon.jpg" /><br />
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<tr><td class="tr-caption" style="text-align: center;">Look at how huge!</td></tr>
</tbody></table>When my mom and 2 of my sisters went to San Diego a while a go.....we found this Vietnamese restaurant and we ate Pho. Well we didn't know that is what we had eaten. <b>WE LOVED IT!</b> But it was all the way over in San Diego......so we have wanted to go back to get some. Little did we know.....we had had Pho. Well my dad has loved this Vietnamese place called Pho Saigon. So he invited myself, my mom, and 2 sisters to come and eat at this place. Well....I ended up ordering the shrimp pho which was <span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: x-large;">DELICIOUS!!!!!!!!!!!</span>.My dad insisted that I got the large size of the pho.....just 75 cents more that the medium. So I ordered a large. <span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: x-small;">Let me tell you something. This was not large.</span> <span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: large;">This was super</span>-<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: large;">mega-monstor</span>-<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: x-large;"><b>huge-can't eat if forced to-size</b></span>! It was huge!<br />
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It was <span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: x-large;">amazing to say the least. </span>I had to add some hot sauce and I added tons of the basil/asian cilantro/ been sprouts/lemon juice all mixed in!<br />
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<tr><td class="tr-caption" style="text-align: center;">They give you a plate of herbs and sprouts to top your pho with. MMMM! (phone pic...terrible quality)<br />
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<div style="text-align: left;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;">The flavor of the broth. YUM! </span><b><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: x-large;">I am a broth girl!</span></b><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;"> What the heck does that mean, you ask? It means I would rather have more broth than all the other stuff in soup. I love broth. This broth....I can't even describe the flavor....</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: x-large;">I can't compare it to anything</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;">. You </span><b><u><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: large;">have to </span></u></b><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;">try Pho. This place was packed out and had a line out the door. I will be going quite often (I still have leftovers!!! YAY!)</span></div><div style="text-align: left;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;"><br />
</span></div><div style="text-align: left;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;">I did something <b>kind of scary too</b>....I ate a crab cheese wonton. </span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: x-large;">Deep fried cheesy, crabby goodness</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;">. Loved it! The dipping sauce....ahhh. I could have <b>drank it</b>. It was really sweet and tasted like ginger on steroids. MY FAVORITE! :D </span></div></td></tr>
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</div><div style="text-align: left;">"But the fruit of the Spirit is love, joy, peace, longsuffering, gentleness, goodness, faith, meekness, temperance: against such there is no law." <u><b>Galatians 5:22-23</b></u></div><div style="text-align: left;"><br />
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<tr><td class="tr-caption" style="text-align: center;">From left to right, my mom, sister in law, 2 sisters, me, another sister! (this was taken a while ago!)</td></tr>
</tbody></table><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Georgia, 'Times New Roman', serif;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="line-height: 21px;">1. OOOohhhh man. I can't think of anything! hahah! </span><b style="line-height: 21px;">Okay I have to get serious now</b><span class="Apple-style-span" style="line-height: 21px;">! UMmmm I am the youngest child in my family. I have 3 sisters and one brother! I</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: x-large; line-height: 21px;"> LOVE MY FAMILY!</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="line-height: 21px;"> I spend almost all of my free time hanging out with my siblings and I adore them all! <b>I have been blessed with incredible siblings!</b></span></span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Georgia, 'Times New Roman', serif;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="line-height: 21px;">2. I love ketchup, peanut butter, horseradish, wasabi, honey mustard, blue cheese dressing, cinnamon, nutmeg, garlic, and balsamic vinegar on practically everything. <span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: large;">Yes.</span>..I love carrots and grapes dipped in peanut butter. <span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: large;">Yes</span> I put horesradish and wasabi in my salad dressings and potatoes. <b><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: x-large;">Yes</span></b> I put ketchup on my eggs. Mmmm I love wierd sauces!</span></span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Georgia, 'Times New Roman', serif;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="line-height: 21px;">3. I love school. <span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: x-large;">Not even kidding</span>. I love to do homework. I love studying long and hard for a mega exam. I love going to school with my nerdy roller backpack (still think I'm a stylish blogger?!?!?!). I love to make friends with my professors. I would <span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: large;">rather do school</span> than many many many things. I am SUPER EXCITED to start school on Wednesday! Can't wait!</span></span></div><table align="center" cellpadding="0" cellspacing="0" class="tr-caption-container" style="margin-left: auto; margin-right: auto; text-align: center;"><tbody>
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</tbody></table><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Georgia, 'Times New Roman', serif;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="line-height: 21px;">4. Music makes up about<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: x-large;"> 50% of my life</span>. I am constantly listening to music ( I love indie/alternative music....go listen to Blitzen Trapper, Peter Bjorn and John, Sufjan Stevens, Brooke Waggoner, Ingrid Michealson, Phoenix, Priscilla Ahn, and Basshunter to get a taste of what I like!). I play the piano (I have been playing for something like 8 years) and have played the guitar for about a year. I have a drum set in my bedroom for "decoration" (my mom won't let me play :P). I also <b><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: large;">LOVE TO SING! I do it all the time! </span></b>My poor family has to put up with me singing all the time...and I love to harmonize to songs. I am off most of the time but I love to do it! Again...my poor family!</span></span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Georgia, 'Times New Roman', serif;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="line-height: 21px;">5. I have gone to the same church since I was 4. </span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="line-height: 21px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: x-large;">That's 14 years. I love it! </span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="line-height: 21px;">It is a pretty small church...therefore I know almost everyone. They are like my family. I love them so much and get to spend every Wednesday and Sunday with them. They encourage me, bless me, help me, and are great friends. I hope I get to stay at my church forever!</span></span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Georgia, 'Times New Roman', serif;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="line-height: 21px;">6. <span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: x-large;"><b>No one</b></span> outside of my family, counselor, doctor, and bloggy friends know that I have an ED. I can't bring myself to tell anyone. <b>I want to tell them</b> but I always get to scared and I don't want things to change between us because of my problem. I also heard that these days many girls are becoming anorexic because <b>they have heard of their friends</b> being anorexic and do it themselves. (not that it is something that you can "do"...it is a mental illness...but you know what I mean.) <span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: x-large;">Should I tell my friends?</span> I also want to be a help to all people concerning body image. I want my friends to know what I have gone through and to not go what I have gone through. <b>I am kind of conflicted you see.</b></span></span></div><table cellpadding="0" cellspacing="0" class="tr-caption-container" style="float: right; text-align: center;"><tbody>
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<tr><td class="tr-caption" style="text-align: center;">Me Wearing sweatpants, thick socks, tennies, 2 shirts, <s>a </s>2 sweatshirts, a coat, 2 scarves, and gloves, with a blanket on my lap......still freezing!!! haah!</td></tr>
</tbody></table><div><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjMVkYZ6EGo-A2fidCC6PWsBWicTqDL_91QZUxXo9hieEGLyVV6tSca93AgX4KxoRZLAA4ZnxoyqJ2AQbo-6dh91C-JCPrOU373n3TRxrl2B736yL-69aEYYLry0MU7IwgePkbipQi_OOQ/s1600/snuggie.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="clear: left; float: left; margin-bottom: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" height="200" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjMVkYZ6EGo-A2fidCC6PWsBWicTqDL_91QZUxXo9hieEGLyVV6tSca93AgX4KxoRZLAA4ZnxoyqJ2AQbo-6dh91C-JCPrOU373n3TRxrl2B736yL-69aEYYLry0MU7IwgePkbipQi_OOQ/s200/snuggie.jpg" width="133" /></a><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Georgia, 'Times New Roman', serif;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="line-height: 21px;">7. Now for something kind of funny.....I<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: x-large;"> am constantly cold</span>. Yes...I know it is because of my anorexia. I am working on this. But seriously I am always cold. It is quite humorous you see because this winter my mom bought me a heated bed thing. I just have to hit a couple buttons and my bed is all <span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: red; font-size: x-large;"><b>roasty toasty</b></span>. Guess what I do? An hour or so before bed I turn on my bed warmer and lay out my pj's onto my bed. When I come back to get ready for bed....my pj's are all warm! <span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: x-large;">Its fabulous</span>! For Christmas I got a snuggie, underclothes that are made specifically to keep you warm, slipper socks (my fav), an ear warmer, and 2 pairs of gloves. I sleep with super warm thick sheets, a down comforter, and 3 thinner blankets. yes. <span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: x-large;">I know. Its crazy</span>. I have been known to warm myself up by turning on the burner and standing next to it or lighting a candle to warm my hands up! I'm pretty much known for being constantly cold. At school....I usually wear jeans, uggs (with thick wool socks on), 2 shirts, a sweater, a coat, and a scarf. I wear it<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: x-large;"> all day long and don't take any layers off.</span> Usually I wish I had more. My body temp. has no rhyme or reason! :P</span></span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Georgia, 'Times New Roman', serif;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="line-height: 21px;"><br />
</span></span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Georgia, 'Times New Roman', serif;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="line-height: 21px;">Okay that was <span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: x-large;">WAY </span>to much about me! I want to hear about you guys....so here are my tags:</span></span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Georgia, 'Times New Roman', serif;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="line-height: 21px;"><a href="http://solskinn88.wordpress.com/">Hedda@Learning To Listen and Trust</a></span></span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Georgia, 'Times New Roman', serif;"><a href="http://katy-rediscovered.blogspot.com/">Katy@ rediscoverED</a></span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Georgia, 'Times New Roman', serif;"><a href="http://katshealthcorner.wordpress.com/">Kat@katshealthcorner</a></span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Georgia, 'Times New Roman', serif;"><a href="http://katshealthcorner.wordpress.com/">Clare@Fitting It All In</a></span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Georgia, 'Times New Roman', serif;"><a href="http://heyitstay.wordpress.com/">Taylor @ Taydor Tott</a></span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Georgia, 'Times New Roman', serif;"><a href="http://mourningrestoration.blogspot.com/">Elizabeth Ann@ Mo(u)rning Restoration</a></span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Georgia, 'Times New Roman', serif;"><a href="http://healing-recovery.blogspot.com/">Danielle@ Beating Ed</a></span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Georgia, 'Times New Roman', serif;"><a href="http://lifeworthloving.blogspot.com/">Lily@ Life worth Loving</a></span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Georgia, 'Times New Roman', serif;"><a href="http://jennasjourneythroughlife.wordpress.com/">Jenna@Jenna's Journey</a></span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Georgia, 'Times New Roman', serif;"><a href="http://www.hungryrunnergirl.com/">The Hungry runner Girl</a></span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Georgia, 'Times New Roman', serif;"><a href="http://snackgirlgoeshealthy.wordpress.com/">Carlee@Snack Girl Goes Healthy</a></span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Georgia, 'Times New Roman', serif;"><a href="http://happinessiswithinblog.com/">Dana@ Happiness Is Within</a></span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Georgia, 'Times New Roman', serif;"><a href="http://mealsandmoves.wordpress.com/">Janetha @ Meals and Moves</a></span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Georgia, 'Times New Roman', serif;"><a href="http://tearstowords.blogspot.com/">Arielle @ Actively Arielle</a></span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Georgia, 'Times New Roman', serif;"><a href="http://www.beautifulyoubyjulie.com/">Julie @ Beautiful You</a></span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Georgia, 'Times New Roman', serif;"><br />
</span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Georgia, 'Times New Roman', serif;">Here is a little quote I just read. <span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: x-large;"><b>It is fabulous. I keep on reading it. </b></span>Read it several times to get the real punch of it. It is very profound and helpful. <span class="Apple-style-span" style="line-height: 14px;">"I would rather be what God chose to make me than the most glorious creature that I could think of; for to have been thought about, born in God's thought, and then made by God, is the <b><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: x-large;">dearest, grandest and most precious thing in all thinking</span></b>." -George MacDonald</span></span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="line-height: 14px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Georgia, 'Times New Roman', serif;"><br />
</span></span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="line-height: 14px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Georgia, 'Times New Roman', serif;">Have a wonderful day!</span></span></div>Unknownnoreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2359436161362393268.post-68725402233562303802011-01-15T12:25:00.000-08:002011-01-15T12:32:05.733-08:00A snowy walk!<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Georgia, 'Times New Roman', serif;">Hello all! Today is a good day. Thank goodness for that! This morning I cried for a while and it really made me feel better. I haven't cried in several days (thats a record....hahah just kidding!) and so it felt <b>good to just let it out</b>. Last night we went to go see The Kings Speech (<b><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: large;">GO SEE IT!</span></b>)! On the way there I just wanted to burst out sobbing. I was so upset. It was over <b>silly things</b> too.</span><br />
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<iframe allowfullscreen='allowfullscreen' webkitallowfullscreen='webkitallowfullscreen' mozallowfullscreen='mozallowfullscreen' width='320' height='266' src='https://www.youtube.com/embed/-aS4hoOSlzo?feature=player_embedded' frameborder='0'></iframe><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Georgia, 'Times New Roman', serif;">So last night I was planning on eating some soup for dinner but then my mom told me that she had reheated some leftover spaghetti and meatballs. So I kind of felt like I needed to have that since she already had it ready. <b><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: large;">The thing is I really didn't want to eat that</span></b>. And it made me realize something. I<b> have to sike myself up</b> for the food I am going to be eating. seriously. I know it sounds crazy but I feel like I have to. I have to plan and know what I am going to be eating or else I get really upset. Like the other night when I had hot dogs (<b><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: large;">woo hoo I did it!</span></b>) I had to sike myself up for it for a couple of hours. Once I knew that was what we were having for dinner I had to prepare myself mentally. <b><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: large;">Does anyone else have to do this?</span></b> Anyways, I had to be flexible last night and it really bothered me. Then we left late for the movie which really bothered me too. In the car I just wanted to burst out sobbing....but I didn't want to spoil the night for the rest of the family so I just <b>held it inside</b>. Anyways, it felt good to just <b><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: large;">release </span></b>this morning.</span><br />
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<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Georgia, 'Times New Roman', serif;">Yesterday and the day before I took Henry (my dog) for a walk! We were <b>finally</b> able to go since most of the snow ( <span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: large;">i thought</span>) had been shoveled of of peoples sidewalks. well....they weren't really shoveled so we had to trudge through <b>but he loved it</b>! </span><br />
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</tbody></table><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Georgia, 'Times New Roman', serif;">I realized something on this walk too. <b><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: large;">Whenever I am out in nature I feel strong and beautiful</span></b>. It seriously is the only time I feel this way. When I was on this walk I felt cute in my baggy jeans, big sweater, scarf, and huge sunglasses. No I didn't have a great outfit on. No I didn't do my hair well that day. No I didn't have new clothes on. <b>But I still felt beautiful.</b> There is something about looking at all of God's creation that just inspires me. I am reminded of the beauty of this world and the beauty that God has bestowed on me. <b><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: large;">I love being outside! I can't wait for summer when i can be outside without freezing my toushy off!</span></b></span><br />
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</span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Georgia, 'Times New Roman', serif;">I want to go back to what I was talking in my post about <a href="http://www.biblegateway.com/passage/?search=Ephesians%205&version=NIV">Ephesians </a>5. In verse 11 it talks about not being associated with or spending our precious time with the "<b><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: large;">unfruitful works of darkness, but rather reprove them.</span></b>" I think this is something that we should all do. I once thought that it was crazy to out loud tell a sin to go away or to stop. But I really believe it works. I<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: large;"> know I sound CRAZY</span>. But seriously. Saying it outloud kind of pushes it out and brings it out in the open. When I first started my recovery, outloud I said "Go away anorexia. Go away vanity." The minute after this I felt such relief. Its like a burden was lifted. I then prayed that the Lord would fill my heart with something else. <b><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: large;">Something better. </span></b>Since that day I have been stronger and had less of a burden. I did this after I watched this inspiring and helpful video (I think her focus is a little off at the end when she talks about being skinny after anorexia and all that but it is still helpful): </span><br />
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<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Georgia, 'Times New Roman', serif;">So I decided that I am going to add some more pages that have tips on recovery. My counselor gave me a ton of worksheets and stuff that I think would be <b>helpful to everyone! </b></span><br />
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<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Georgia, 'Times New Roman', serif;">As far as my post ....whatever it was.....3 days ago?....I wanted to talk more about the whole trials and tribulations thing. Well I have come to a conclusion. A big one....one that has honestly made me understand why I have struggled so much. Trials and tribulations make us into who we are. <span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: large;">I honestly can't say that I would be as wise, mature, close to God, and eventually happy if I had not gone through what I have. </span></span><br />
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<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Georgia, 'Times New Roman', serif;">I can truly call it a blessing like James writes in the NT. In the very beginning of the book of James, he says, "My brethren, <span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: large;">count it all joy </span>when ye fall into divers temptations; knowing this, that the trying of your <b>faith worketh patience</b>." So we should be counting our blessings when we are struggling the most with the temptation of restricting/over exercising/ purging/ and even having ed thoughts? <u>Well I don't think that the Lord wants us to be happy about those feelings because that is sin.</u> But I do think He wants us to see how we are blessed in other areas of our life. <b><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: large;">Most importantly, He wants us to look/lean/pray/and cast our cares upon Him when we are struggling. </span></b></span><br />
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<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Georgia, 'Times New Roman', serif;">For me, I feel like I have grown <b>SO much</b> as a person through my experience with ED. Seriously. Yes, I have hurts and problems. But have been broken and since I have relied on the Lord...I am being pieced backed together. He wants to carry our burdens. Remember the verse, "My yoke is easy and my burden is light,"? He ain't gonna drop you and leave you there. He is going to take your burdens and lift them away.....<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: large;">IF YOU LET HIM</span>! That is the <b>key</b>. </span><img alt="Key Hole Heart Red" height="320" src="http://images2.layoutsparks.com/1/133522/key-hole-heart-red.jpg" width="279" /><br />
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<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Georgia, 'Times New Roman', serif;">Verse 4 is always looked over in this chapter. " <b>But let patience have her perfect work, that ye may be perfect and entire, wanting nothing.</b>" Isn't that what we are ALL striving for with our ED'S? Perfection....to be entire.....and wanting nothing. To be complete....and in control. <b><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: large;">Well looky here. This is the answer. Fall on the Lord.</span></b> When you are struggling look to Him. And this will cause you to have faith which will cause you to have patience with is a perfect work that makes us perfect, entire, and wanting nothing. <span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: x-large;">Simple. As. That. </span></span><br />
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<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Georgia, 'Times New Roman', serif;">James 5:11 says, "<span class="Apple-style-span" style="line-height: 21px;">We count those </span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="line-height: 21px;"><b>blessed who endured</b></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="line-height: 21px;">. You have heard of the endurance of Job and have seen the outcome of the Lord's dealings, that the Lord is full of </span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="line-height: 21px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: x-large;">compassion and is merciful</span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="line-height: 21px;">." You. You who has cried, suffered, been torn inside, and outside. You who has felt completely alone, helpless, sad beyond belief, destroyed inside and out, ugly, fat, and completely worthless. Your struggling is not for nothing. </span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="line-height: 21px;"><b>There is a purpose.</b></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="line-height: 21px;"> We may not know that purpose until we meet Jesus face to face. But there is a plan. One that will end with, "</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="line-height: 21px;"><b><u><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: x-large;">Well done my good and faithful servant.</span></u></b></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="line-height: 21px;">" </span></span><br />
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<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Georgia, 'Times New Roman', serif;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="line-height: 21px;"></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="line-height: 21px;"><span class="crossverse" style="line-height: 21px; text-align: justify; text-decoration: none;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="text-decoration: none;">James 1:12</span> says, "</span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-weight: 500; line-height: 21px;">Blessed is the man who perseveres under trial, because when he has stood the test, <span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: x-large;">he will receive the crown of life that God has promised to those who love him."</span></span></span>Unknownnoreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2359436161362393268.post-55329068456745617862011-01-12T11:58:00.000-08:002011-01-12T11:58:37.874-08:00Click.Delete.Click.Delete.<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Georgia, 'Times New Roman', serif;">Hello! I just finished going through my bookmarks of blogs that I follow. And I did something that I have been <span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: large;"><b>resisting doing for a while.</b></span> I went through and deleted several of them from my bookmarks. <span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: large;">Why you ask......well.........several of them are really triggering for me.</span> I have followed lots of health/running/exercise blogs and I think that lots of the people that I read have some problems with eating and and over exercising and don't realize it. When I read these blogs...<b>I feel like I am being silly and that I don't really have an eating or over exercising problem and this is how everyone is. </b>I look at the food they consume and the amount of calories they burn and automatically start comparing myself to them. <span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: large;">This is MY ISSUE. Not their's. </span>They can post and do whatever they want. But I need to step back and help myself. I basically just clicked through each one and if their entire home page did not trigger me at all I did not push delete. If I felt the twinge bit of ED telling me that <span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: large;"><b>I was a failure and needed to be more like these people...I clicked delete.</b></span> I am going to miss those blogs. Maybe someday I can return to them! :D I would suggest doing this....<b>it is really going to help I think!</b> :D</span><br />
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<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Georgia, 'Times New Roman', serif;">Today I had an amazing time reading my Bible this morning. <b><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: large;">Like I didn't want to stop reading. I love it when I am so engrossed in God's Word.</span></b> However, I stopped reading to do something. <b>WORK OUT</b>. Ugh. I am so ashamed of this. I stopped reading my Bible.....to work out <b>some more</b>. :( I have to stop doing this. I am such a slave. I really felt though that I was being good to myself because I was <span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: large;">SUPER</span> sore after yesterday. So I decided I was <span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: large;"><b>JUST</b></span> going to do yoga. I ended up doing yoga, lifting weights, working my abs and legs, and riding the stationary bike. Its like<b><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: large;"> I get sucked in and can't stop.</span></b> Poo. And guess what? I did this all after I got inspired after reading in Ephesians about pretty much this thing. </span><br />
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<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Georgia, 'Times New Roman', serif;">Okay so, it is <b>obvious</b> that I am not practicing what I am preaching. So the following is more like me trying to pound these facts into my head. <span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: large;"><a href="http://www.biblegateway.com/passage/?search=Ephesians%205&version=NIV">Go read Ephesians chapter 5 verses 1-20</a>.</span> They are pretty convicting for someone who is struggling with ED. Verse six is something I need to practice in my life. Not letting man deceive me with vain words. I use other people's judgments about weight and such and apply them to my life. <b><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: large;">I need to listen to God and what He wants for my body and life.</span></b> Vs. 10 is awesome too. It basically talks about proving to yourself and those around you what is acceptable to our Father in heaven. <b>Is working out for hours and depriving ourselves of the food God has provided acceptable to Him? NO its not D.E.B.O.R.A.H. </b>(sorry for talking to myself) I just have to get this out! Anyways....I want to post more about this later....oh and I also want to post more about my last post....oh dear. <span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: large;">This is confusing! :P I have so much to say!</span></span>Unknownnoreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2359436161362393268.post-42594130166735963772011-01-11T14:47:00.000-08:002011-01-11T14:55:43.862-08:00And I'm Feeeeeeeeelin' Good. Duh Da duh Da da!<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Georgia, 'Times New Roman', serif;">Ahh I <span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: red;"><b>love</b> </span>Michael Buble...and Debussy ( I am currently listening to Debussy...amazing composer!)! So today I am <span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: large;"><b>feeeeeeelin' good</b> </span>(obviously since that is what my title says). I love these days! These are the days that I have renewed hope and an outlook on life that looks pretty darn pleasant! Guess what I had for dindin last night and lunch today??!?! S<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: large;">paghetti and meatballs with garlic bread, salad, and corn!</span> YUM! I have not had spaghetti/meatballs/and garlic bread in FOREVER! It was delicious! The marinara was AHHHHmazing (why?....it was from <span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: large;"><b>Maggianos</b></span>!) I ate <s>one</s> two plate fulls! I thought that I was not hungry so I just started out slow...but then I felt more hungry so I dug in! </span><img src="http://media.cleveland.com/scoopdujour_impact/photo/maggianos-1-13115c54d5a01aff_medium.jpg" /><br />
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<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Georgia, 'Times New Roman', serif;">I honestly can't believe that I have gotten to the point where I don't have terrible guilt about eating something like a second plate of spaghetti. <b><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: large;">Yeah....I still restrict and feel guilt when I overeat.....but it is not as bad anymore.</span></b> Overeating is dangerous for people with ED. It sends you into a horrible vicious cycle of binging and restricting and over exercising and then all over again. Don't overeat. I know this sounds like my ED talking but it really isn't. I<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: large;"> have had to learn how to deal with my ED thoughts. This is one of the most helpful things on earth. Eat when hungry...don't when not. </span></span><br />
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<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Georgia, 'Times New Roman', serif;">Okay.....<span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: red; font-size: large;"><b>stop a second</b></span>. Let's rewind. I want to clarify something.......<u><b><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: large;">EAT WHEN HUNGRY! And eat high calorie foods in order to gain weight! (yeah I just bolded that and underlined it. I mean business)</span></b></u> Don't just eat 20 stalks of celery and 10 carrots and feel full so that you don't eat anymore! (I<b> used to do this...not even kidding)</b> Eat stuff like.....hmmm spaghetti and meatballs and garlic BREAD! Then when you are full....STOP. <b>And don't you dare think about feeling guilty about what you just ate....oh and be sure to take part in that dessert too</b>! But really...this has been so helpful for me. I feel so much more in control, happier, and knowledgeable about what my body needs once I started just listening to my body. <b>I KNOW I KNOW! <span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: large;">Everyone talks about it...intuitive eating....but really you will be surprised how easy it is. </span></b>I feel great....and I am gaining weight! :D</span><br />
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<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Georgia, 'Times New Roman', serif;"><b>Wonderful verses for the day: Romans 5:3-5</b> " <sup class="versenum" id="en-KJV-28051" style="font-weight: bold; line-height: normal; vertical-align: text-top;">3</sup>And not only so, <b><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: large;">but we glory in tribulations also:</span></b> knowing that tribulation worketh patience;</span><br />
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<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Georgia, 'Times New Roman', serif;">I love the fifth verse. "And hope maketh not ashamed." When we have that hope...<b>we will not be ashamed.</b> That includes not being ashamed of our faith, muffin tops, jiggly legs, crazy families....a<b>nd anything else that turns your face red</b>! <span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: x-large;">Trials and tribulations are things that make us into who we are.</span> I am going to talk more about this in my next post. That is all for now!</span><br />
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Sooo after she heard that I have been loosing weight and that I am frustrated with myself she started asking what I was eating. I told her and she thought that I was on a pretty good track but definitely need to amp up the protein and fat. I LOVE protein...<b>can't stand fat. Gross</b>. Even the thought of what fat really is makes me gag. <b>Butter (I literally just got goosbumps from thinking about it....gross!), milk, non fat free dairy products</b>...yeah all of it has to start entering my diet. She is also going to have me start to keep a food journal. This makes me really nervous. <b>Immediately I start worrying about what I have been eating </b>and if I am unhealthy and all of that. Yesterday I was hungry and didn't let myself eat because I didn't want to write it down in the food journal because I don't want Mary Ellen to think I eat too much. <b>Rational?</b> NO WAY. Why do I think like this?<br />
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In the end though <b>I was honest again</b>....uhhh...being honest is painful sometimes...and told her that I know the major reason why I am not gaining weight. <b>E.X.E.R.C.I.S.E.</b> Yeah. I addicted. I am a cardio junkie. I do more cardio than i would really like to fess up to. <b>No I am not a marathoner that runs 18 miles three times a week.</b> But I do do way too much....especially since I am a person who is trying to gain weight and get back my period. <b>I can't stop though. Ahhhh....I love it so much...and I HAVE to do it. </b>At least that is how I feel. I am going to have to give it up sometime though. Not completely of course...no no no way ....don't scare me like that!!!!! :P But I am going to have to start to back off a little. I put <b>way to much</b> priority and time into running my butt off. Its kind of like my idol. Sounds crazy I know but it really is getting in the way of my relationship with God. Before I sit down to read my Bible I have to work out. Before I take time to pray I have to work out. You wanna know why? Because I know that the Lord is not pleased with me concerning this. <b>And I am too guilty to face Him about it.</b><br />
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Anyways, I am going to <b>not</b> let writing my food down stop me from eating when i am hungry and I am going to <b>stop</b> doing SO much cardio. More strength training. <b>I want muscles anyways</b>. Bring on the protien and the wieghts! :D Have an awesome day all!<br />
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Ooooh oooh P.S. <b>I ate OIAJ yesterday for the first time</b>! YUM! too much fun! not enough peanut butter left in the jar though...my other peanut butter obsessed sister scraped it pretty clean already! Still yummy though!Unknownnoreply@blogger.com1