So I decided that I am going to add some more pages that have tips on recovery. My counselor gave me a ton of worksheets and stuff that I think would be helpful to everyone!
As far as my post ....whatever it was.....3 days ago?....I wanted to talk more about the whole trials and tribulations thing. Well I have come to a conclusion. A big one....one that has honestly made me understand why I have struggled so much. Trials and tribulations make us into who we are. I honestly can't say that I would be as wise, mature, close to God, and eventually happy if I had not gone through what I have.
I can truly call it a blessing like James writes in the NT. In the very beginning of the book of James, he says, "My brethren, count it all joy when ye fall into divers temptations; knowing this, that the trying of your faith worketh patience." So we should be counting our blessings when we are struggling the most with the temptation of restricting/over exercising/ purging/ and even having ed thoughts? Well I don't think that the Lord wants us to be happy about those feelings because that is sin. But I do think He wants us to see how we are blessed in other areas of our life. Most importantly, He wants us to look/lean/pray/and cast our cares upon Him when we are struggling.
For me, I feel like I have grown SO much as a person through my experience with ED. Seriously. Yes, I have hurts and problems. But have been broken and since I have relied on the Lord...I am being pieced backed together. He wants to carry our burdens. Remember the verse, "My yoke is easy and my burden is light,"? He ain't gonna drop you and leave you there. He is going to take your burdens and lift them away.....IF YOU LET HIM! That is the key.
Verse 4 is always looked over in this chapter. " But let patience have her perfect work, that ye may be perfect and entire, wanting nothing." Isn't that what we are ALL striving for with our ED'S? Perfection....to be entire.....and wanting nothing. To be complete....and in control. Well looky here. This is the answer. Fall on the Lord. When you are struggling look to Him. And this will cause you to have faith which will cause you to have patience with is a perfect work that makes us perfect, entire, and wanting nothing. Simple. As. That.
James 5:11 says, "We count those blessed who endured. You have heard of the endurance of Job and have seen the outcome of the Lord's dealings, that the Lord is full of compassion and is merciful." You. You who has cried, suffered, been torn inside, and outside. You who has felt completely alone, helpless, sad beyond belief, destroyed inside and out, ugly, fat, and completely worthless. Your struggling is not for nothing. There is a purpose. We may not know that purpose until we meet Jesus face to face. But there is a plan. One that will end with, "Well done my good and faithful servant."
I will leave you with this final verse.
James 1:12 says, "Blessed is the man who perseveres under trial, because when he has stood the test, he will receive the crown of life that God has promised to those who love him."